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Here are some links to articles I discovered while searching for something completely unrelated. I think they're well written and contain some intelligent observations, and I encourage you to read them.

If We Treated Any Other Illness This Way, It Would Be Malpractice (Laura Collins Lyster-Mensh)

Three Simple Steps to Eliminate Heartburn and ( Read more... )

Help. Everything is falling away

The old me would have resented the new me. At one time I would have hated any person who was unable to gain weight, would have been angry and jealous. But it is not the same in here, you can only crave sickness when you do not have it; at least that has been the case for me. I feel sickly and aged, a crust of a body. I am thinner than all my ( Read more... )

I am so depressed today that I cannot do anything functional.

The skies are white. The roofs are white. The snow is still coming down, silently, like muted applause.

IT'S JUST FOOD DAMMIT

I don't believe anything they say. I am drunk, a sad drunk. My heart hurts. I'm afraid I will die in my sleep, but anything would be better than the pain. I speak to myself in lies to ease the pain. Nobody loves me. I am all alone. I won't bother to go to work tomorrow. I won't wake up at all. The music sighs to me, a pleasing, lilting, ( Read more... )

Catching my reflection in the mirror to my right, seeing my face parsed into Picasso-esque pieces: cheeks and chin out of proportion, eyes pasted on at random. At long last, I was completely alone.

- Hornbacher, WastedI have a vague understanding of what I look like, but I am unable to get a sense of the bigger picture. I agree and disagree with ( Read more... )

100.0, 16.1

I think that I've approached the point where I actually disgust myself. It's very bizarre because all I ever wanted was to be thin. I wanted this both out of vanity and as a deeply metaphorical being. I wanted to look the way I felt and I wanted to be better than other people at something that so many long for but fail to achieve. I never ( Read more... )