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[frailing]

I don't believe anything they say. I am drunk, a sad drunk. My heart hurts. I'm afraid I will die in my sleep, but anything would be better than the pain. I speak to myself in lies to ease the pain. Nobody loves me. I am all alone. I won't bother to go to work tomorrow. I won't wake up at all. The music sighs to me, a pleasing, lilting,

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[puppet_vultures]

this is the saddest entry I've ever read. it was also really well written. but that second part was expected.
It made me cry.
I really worry about you.
Sometimes it really makes me sad that my internet-friends are all fucked up. It helps that they're fucked up...you can't talk about things like this in real life. Not with real people. and it's nice to know you're not the only one that feels this way. But it makes me sad. Because we're all fucked up. If someone were to die, we'd never know.
I want to kill myself all the time. Every day. Not an hour goes by that I don't think about it. And what would happen? Nobody would ever know.

I hope you are okay.

......how lame is it that this post made me want to get wasted? I haven't drank in like, two months and now I want to get wasted and pass out in my bathtub.

[frailing]

I agree with you about this. I don't know what I would do if I couldn't talk about this stuff here, but the fact that all the people reading it are hundreds of miles away is terrible. "If someone were to die, we'd never know." Exactly.

......how lame is it that this post made me want to get wasted? I haven't drank in like, two months and now I want to get wasted and pass out in my bathtub.

It's so weird you should say this, because I did exactly that, and I was confused because I didn't remember writing about it.

I hope you are okay, too. I don't want you to be so sad. I wish I knew of a way to take our pain away for real, without causing pain in some other way.

[surrealistes]

this is probably scant comfort to you, but i cannot believe that nobody loves you. i have known your online presence for maybe two weeks and i have already fallen a little bit in love with you. i read your entries obsessively because the way you write, the way you think, fascinates me utterly. i think you are beautiful inside and out, however broken you may feel.