Patrick, 41, in need of a kidney, has been posting on Craigslist seeking out donors. The first time I saw his ad I printed it out and carried it around with me. He hasn't made a post since July 31st. I wonder if he found a donor, lost hope, or didn't make it. Reading his ad and seeing him ask for help put a knot in my stomach. He's asking for help ( Read more... )

speak into my ear
wind into space 'tween my ears
with your summer haze,

I sweat nervous, I sweat
from the exhilaration
of missing your face

don't sweat it, all good
is there already is good

as it will be, express heart

express self no need
for improvement or better
the power belongs, is

And has been waiting
for a woke interior,
to clear summer haze

Life goes on! What a relief. I can only stuck myself. The mystery asks me to come along and what a privilege!

Watched the "Beez In The Trap" music video by Nicki Minaj with a friend last night. He thought it was badass. I thought it was gross. I didn't say anything but I'm not down with music that's just about hating on people. The Beez In the Trap part was cool but basically everything else was a bunch of pop-rap bullshit glorifying the motif that if ( Read more... )

Grateful to have an eclectic group of good people: coworkers, friends, acquaintances who remind me to keep faith in the goodness of others.

The oval office is ugly.

It's hard trying to get over being treated really poorly by someone you care about deeply. In part, there's a feeling that justice has not been served but of the emotional hangup's I have it's the one I'm most willing to let go (It's the part of me angry that I should be alone while this other person gets to keep on keeping on). I am not a ( Read more... )

Yesterday: Another beach day with Sofia but this time hisJoe joined us for a cloudy and windy beach time. Sofia complained that the lack of sun would not activate his expensive tingling bronzer. hisJoe and I walked along the beach and talked semi-awkwardly about how he was paying for his daughters college. I like hisJoe though. I feel like he gets ( Read more... )

I bicycled to the beach this afternoon and met my friend Sofia. The sun wasn't out but the wind was blowing shirtless temperatures. I drank some gin and juice from a plastic pepsi bottle. There was lightning; the teenage lifeguards ran up to us "Because I saw lighting you have to get off the beach and go to the boardwalk for thirty minutes." Beach ( Read more... )

How many epiphanies before a person goes insane? Insights which wont be understood with logic. Best to leave some ideas be. Maybe?