everything is changing. i would write it all down. all the revelations. all the changes. i have so much to say but don't know where, or how, to start. just know i have done a lot of growing up lately. still have a lot to improve on, but apparently people see a difference. i don't really. 3 years with depression and only now is someone seeing ( Read more... )

it was my friend maritzi's birthday party. it was being hosted at my place. all day i was getting bad feelings about it. it was just some girls from itc and some friends from lisa's work that were coming over. lisa invited the neighbors just so that they wouldnt complain about the noise ( Read more... )

incase you are unaware, i lost my digital camera when i moved in june into my current apartment. it is because of this that i never posted a "look at my new place" type picture here. so today i decided to try using my webcam. it worked semi well, seeing as how my webcam is rather stationary. not the best quality photo, but i am excited.

( part of my room + me )

so i got home last night around 2am from pomona west, my second chico home. i locked the car, causing it to beep as usual and freak me out, also usual. then i proceeded to fumble my key into the lock and fall asleep on the couch until 5am. I woke up in my bed a little before noon and slothed around the house until i got hungry and decided to ( Read more... )

without any explaination as to why, chris just said that i would be the type of person to get a sex change.

what are your thoughts on this?

a year ago today, my life changed.

These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter
These are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover

( Numbers 1-21 )

now i know whats wrong... its just a matter of making things right again.

i want things to change. now that i realize what i have done, it makes me sick.

something feels wrong.

...i just dont know what it is yet.

i just found out today that amber reads this. hi amber ( Read more... )