i want a cuddle companion right.... NOW ( Read more... )

i love crying. i love it just as much as i hate it. because i thrive off of emotions. its my emotions and feelings that are the fuel that keeps me going. but sometimes they are so overwhelming that they need a release. crying. crying is myself at my most vulnerable. my most exposed. its my raw feelings pouring out of me. it's a freeing feeling, but ( Read more... )

chico is hot. how hot is it? so hot that when laura walked everywhere all day yesterday and then came home, she puked like no other. i have class in 15 minutes. i did the homework and everything but it takes 25 minutes to walk to class and im afraid that it will cause the pukage to commence once more. now im calling people for rides to see if ( Read more... )

ok. here's the school update. i have 3 out of the 4 classes that i am hoping for. i hear from the last teacher on thursday. i think this is actually going to work ( Read more... )

school begins tomorrow. it begins tomorrow for me specifically at 9. earlier actually, because i have to talk to the teacher to see if they'll let me in the class. everything is based on this week. i can't sleep because ive been staying out until 2 all summer ( Read more... )

as far as i know, everything is all better between me and my friend. im happier than a fat kid in a candy store ( Read more... )

i'll take a big breath and swallow my pride.
nothing gets done when i choose to run and hide.

curling in a ball on my bed all day
will not take all my fear and throw it away.

people make mistakes and ive made a few
but one has never been being friends with you.

i was sick earlier. i threw up this morning, but i feel better now.

things are going to be ok. i have to believe that. just sitting here, crossing my fingers, hoping that ive been worrying for nothing. and that's probably what it is.

Sweet dreams til sun beams find you,
Sweet dreams that leave our worries far behind youi want to go to bed, but im afraid to fall asleep. its because i know nothing will have changed when i wake up. i am seeking forgiveness when i dont even know if i have done anything to seek forgiveness for. there is no right way to do deal with this sort of ( Read more... )

today is a nightmare that i can't wake up from.

i need a hug.
i need forgiveness.
i need everything to be ok.
i need my friend.