so we're gonna try this again because i find myself in an extremely difficult position emotionally.  Piled up shit, and no one to talk to.  I had a good thing going, 6 years with one girl, she was my best friend.  She broke up with me a month and change ago to start dating one of our mutual friends less than 2 weeks later...I found this out on ( Read more... )

"...I'm hearing voices but all they do is complain ( Read more... )

Yeah, so like the subject says...I'm gonna try and find some peace again in ranting to you assholes out there. My main issue is still Katie. She's on my mind a lot. Especially when she signs on, and doesn't even say hi anymore unless I say hello to her first. And it's not like she's not talking, because 90% of the time if I IM her I get half of ( Read more... )

hey, ever feel like the people you put first put you last? yeah, me neither, not ever. I bet it sucks though. So I'm lying. I don't know. The worst part is, I don't even have anyone I can talk to about this shit anymore. Yeah I know there's a couple of you out there who'll offer it to me up and down. But don't bother. Well if you couldn't ( Read more... )

I'm full of cheeses...sweet delicious cheeses. Put me on a cracker...mmm...cheese and crackers. Pepperoni wouldn't be amiss either.

eh, same mood as yesterday. I'm really irritable and snapping at people for no reason and being more stubborn than usual. I feel like shit, I haven't slept in like 3 weeks. I want someone to just hug, or who I can lay in their lap and they can just pet my head till I fall asleep. As is now I just sit awake at night and stare at the back of my ( Read more... )

I must have it bad, indiscretion lands in my lap and I couldn't. wasn't her, wasn't worth it. Oh well. Bored...time to eat.

Things aren't as bad as they were. I'm still kinda lost and confused. I decided I would allow myself a few indescretions. What brought the decision around. Well, I know katie cares...but she never says it, or shows it. I'm affectionate with her on a regulr basis...and I get ditto in response. you know, I wouldn't mind so much if I could see ( Read more... )

why do I even bother letting myself get into good moods. somewhere along the line my mood faltered and I just feel like shit. I feel cold and empty and I don't know what I want anymore with anything. I know that I care for katie, but I think there's others that I could care for if I tried, but I don't want to hurt katie. I don't want to lose ( Read more... )

for a change i"m in a good mood. Had a few enlightneing conversations last night till about 1 or 2 in the morning. I'm alost done with school, still can't pay for it but what're you gonna do you know? I'll just join the marines...worst comes to worst...I die. Not that big a deal, not like I'll care, I'll be dead. I've lead a pretty good life, ( Read more... )