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[flavrmonky]

Things aren't as bad as they were. I'm still kinda lost and confused. I decided I would allow myself a few indescretions. What brought the decision around. Well, I know katie cares...but she never says it, or shows it. I'm affectionate with her on a regulr basis...and I get ditto in response. you know, I wouldn't mind so much if I could see her every so often. Because then I would know...but I can't. All I get is online contact...and she goes hot and cold on me so much. Sometimes it just seems like she could care less if I wanted to be with her or not. I really do care a lot about her, and it sucks because the hots are getting shorter and less frequent then the colds. By far. I just reallymiss her. School sucks, I'm flat broke by the way. My bill is near 10 grand that I don't have. I don't nkow what i'm gonna do. I'm sure in the end sucking dick will probably be involved. Oh well...I've stopped caring all together. Also another revelation, me and megan have been talking a lot lately and we've come to a conclusion that I probably have some clinical issues with depression and what not. I answered yes to almost every question in one of those little surveys where one or two is bad. That along with some other great little things she says are usual signs of it make me so happy I could spit.

Well that little visit to one of those silly sites made me feel better...apparently I'm a 7.2 on the hot or not scale. Oh well, time to drown my sorrows in violent video games.

Also...does anyone out there read this? just a quick pole. If you read this...respond to this comment.