[Letter from the Editor: was very drunk and tired and depressed and a little stoned while writing and revising all of this. i hope all of this makes sense... long short story (if you don't want to read it all) i'm depressed and lonely and there is only one woman i wish to be with and i can not and will not... which sucks a big bag of dicks ( Read more... )

Now i would like to preface this by stating on record that when i began my "career" (haha that's a fucking laugh) at the wonderful corporation known as the American Multi-Cinema, Inc. exactly 14 months ago (today i believe) i was a questionable mental stability. At this time there is no question of my stability, i've gone WAY off the deep end ( ( Read more... )

so i just wanted to write a small post to anyone who may read this, but i hate myspace... i wrote out an amazing and long blog entitled part 1.5 of 3: spiritual energy and oh man it was so fucking great then myspace had to suck and it was all lost i hate it ( Read more... )

trifecta of semi-coherent thoughts

i was disgusted today. i was in the newbs parking lot and i saw a hispanic fellow and his fat girlfriend getting out of a pretty nice mustang (maybe a 2003 or 2004), the fat chick was driving and i saw her trying to get herself out of the drivers' seat to no avail. her boyfriend had to pull her up out of car. how ridiculous is that? i couldn't tell ( Read more... )

today as i was leaving my history class, i saw the parent of one of my greatest regrets. i only have two major regrets, but they're both basically because of the same idea. fear. fear of love and connection with another. fear of not always feeling so alone. i know i constantly complain about how lonely i feel and how much i wish there was someone ( Read more... )

just testing something to see if the html works, but if it doesn't then i'm just going to delete this post...

i want to know what is wrong with me? be as horribly brutal as you want, as long as it's honest. thanks.

so i'm feeling incredibly lazy but i really need to write something but i also don't feel like saying anything of substance. i'm lonely. very lonely. suffocatingly horrifically something-else-ing-ly lonely. and it's killing me. not in the literal sense, if loneliness killed i would have been dead a long time ago. but it is crippling me. i do ( Read more... )

i'm so lonely, and i don't even want a girlfriend of sex... all i want is someone to cuddle and sleep with.. that's all... is that too much to ask?