So I know i havent been writing in a long time but im back. or at least im trying ot be. Ive noticed a drastic change in my actual behavior since ive stopped writing. so now im going to start writing again and all of you that read this have the right to smack me or virtually smack me if i dont write at least once a week ( Read more... )

Lately ive been craving girl love

Not sexual love, relationship love. I really do connect romantically better with women. It makes me miss the times I had with Helen all that much more. And for once i want just a vanilla relationship. I want all the hugs and kisses and cuddles and holding hands without all the dominance and submission crap. I look ( Read more... )

I asked for a release from service for a 2 week period.

This is scary as shit but I need it. I feel like I am am too caught up in my mistakes and my life and worrying about trying to serve T and D. In all this I have lost my service heart. I found myself upset more often and losing my intrest in serving just for the sake of serving. I figured this ( Read more... )

I am kitchen ninja and this is where the conversation starts.

[18:26] Drama makes me punch infants.: Crack!
[18:26] Kitchen Ninja: cocaine!
[18:26] Drama makes me punch infants.: Heroine!
[18:30] Kitchen Ninja: mary-jee-wanna
[18:30] Drama makes me punch infants.: LSD
[18:30] Kitchen Ninja: e
[18:31] Drama makes me punch infants.: Meth
[18:31] Kitchen ( Read more... )

This weekend was all kinds of crazy.

friday- DaddySir picks me up from my house after work and we go to the mall to pick up the half jacket with the studs and chains at hot topic that Ive been lusting over and then off to my storage unit to store away all my special stuff thats been hiding in DaddySir's garage. We had a quick yummy scene while I was ( Read more... )

This has only happened once before in my life. The beginning of puberty. Now its happening again. My biological clock has just slapped me in the face and said "O HAI TIEM TO MEK BEBBYS K THNX BAI" aka "hi we are in peek condition to make offspring"  it happened at the begining of puberty when I was just begining to be physically capable to make ( Read more... )

I have been very rough on myself the past month or so. I dont know if its being overly silly, underly (is that a word?) cautious or just down right clumsy, but I've hit my head way too hard at least 5 times in the past month and my brain is not happy. I still have a wee little head ache from monday's forehead meet floor incedent. Ugh oh and to top ( Read more... )

"Processed meat makes it go faster ( Read more... )

"Pet" girl kicked off bus for wearing leash

LONDON (Reuters) - A British bus company has apologized to a girl who is led around on a leash by her boyfriend and describes herself as a human pet after one of its drivers threw her off a bus.

Tasha Maltby, 19, told British newspapers she was the "pet" of her 25-year-old fiance Dani Graves.
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I have two Bettie Paige shirts. Two different men. Two different smells. Two different loves. Last night I had some hurtful things said to me by someone I love. I am still upset over it even though i was told this was written without the knowledge of the efforts I have been making to separate my need to serve and my desire to love. I  fell in love ( Read more... )