Man life sucks... i'm a fool and i am desparate and unhappy. I love my kids ... I am a wreck.. i wish i could die but have no desire too damn i hate you broken heart.

Seems to be a contradiction, but I'm very busy with work right now, seems to be very draining, and I'm left feeling, drained and bored. Moving was more expensive than I thought that it would be, so I feel I like I'm working without any reward. Which of course isn't true, but I have found that often what we feel isn't necessarily true. It is quite ( Read more... )

Sucks so bad. Cain, Connor's dog got out, as he tends to do, and got hit by a car. He got hurt pretty bad and the people that found him took him to the Pet Emergency Vets. So... he's going to be okay, but needs a couple of thousand dollars worth of treatment. Money we don't have. Connor has to give up ownership, and they'll treat him, but then ( Read more... )

The shock is wearing off...and the stages of grief suck by the way.

..but not completely unpacked. We moved down the street. Not too far. Life is finally settling down a little bit. I'm not really ready for the Holidays. I think I put it off a lot. We've got a little tree and some ornaments, but I just remember the Holidays as stressful and unneccesarily traumatic. I am going to try and start some new family ( Read more... )

So, as usual some time has passed since the last time that I posted. Not too much new...we have discovered that we should be having a girl. I think that I will be naming her Airlea Catherine. Connor thinks the first name is a little peculiar, but I searched the name book and it was the one that I liked the best for the new baby. I am due in ( Read more... )

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Nothing too new going on I'm paying bills today, and tomorrow I think that I will go and pay some more on Connor's ticket. I should also be finding out my due date this week.

So here I am trying to be better at making entries. I slept pretty well last night, but I feel exhausted a lot of the time. Connor and I are trying to get to fighter practices. He feels bad, because he hasn't made any progression at fighting. I hope that we will be able to get to enough practices that when we move back he will be on a more even ( Read more... )

How long since I posted last? A long time...long time. Sooo...anyway, here I am! hee hee. Still in California, still in Yucaipa, still pregnant...wait I wasn't pregnant the last time that I posted. So Connor's dad called last night to tell us that he and his wife are going to be the new Baron and Baroness in Caerthe. How exciting. I think ( Read more... )