urgh i'm in a bad mood. Why are you always screaming at me. You are you always looking at me in the negative light. When you scold, i used to feel angry, i used to clench my fist to control my anger. Now, i don't clench my fist anymore. I suspect even my expression is one of nonchalent. I guess it's just that i'm so tired of getting angry and ( Read more... )

I saw this on the web one day:

A sick girl called her friend one day after school and asked if she had ended school and if she wanted to go home.

But her friend said that she’s in the library doing her work and doesn’t want to go home so early.

So the girl negotiated with her friend, asking if it they could go home earlier. Her friend said 4. ( Read more... )

please dont do this to yourself ( Read more... )

 i dont understand. Why must you always be the one that cause all these heartbreaks. Havent you seen enough? maybe it's not your fault. maybe it's the other party's fault for having a one sided affair. but why must your actions be so suggestive that makes them think otherwise? sigh maybe u didnt realise but i suppose it's high time u realise that ( Read more... )

 i dont know. im starting to close myself up. there are so many things that happened these few days and m not exactly taking them in very well. why does things have to get so complicated? i really want to run away, run far far away and never come back. maybe if i had not entered np, things would not have happened. maybe if i had not gone to 3k/4k ( Read more... )

i stopped blogging on blogger cause i promised that i will go on haitus all the way till after EOYs but yea another reason im blogging here is cause i promised myself that i will be happy and let go of everything when i changed the url. but, i guess that i have not been happy these few days. sigh i guess i still have a long way to go. there are ( Read more... )

i dont know what to say and i dont know what im feeling. i get mixed emotions when i see you. i dont want to betray her. i dont see it as a right thing. i really hope. i'll just have someone to rely on soon before i collapse from trying hard not to collapse. these few days have been very screwed cause of pw. urgh. maybe it's obvious tt i show that ( Read more... )

sigh. sometimes, i dont know myself. had a long talk with my mum today. what about this, today was eventful. cant say that im not disappointed. cant say that im not sad but no im not pissed. just sad. sad at what i dont know cause i dont see a point in myself being sad but my heart is. sigh. humans are such contradicting mammals. we think and we ( Read more... )

sighs.. sometimes, i read ppl's blogs or lj entries and i become speechless. today when zuo yue asked me if i like anyone, i was stunned there. i dont know what to say or reply so i jsut said no. maybe i'm lying to myself or to her. i dont know.. sighs. sometimes, even though u may be there talking with them and everything, you are never part of ( Read more... )

sighs.. i almost screwed my bio test today. freaked out. zzz.. sighs. felt much better today. didnt get suaned as much, didnt get pissed off as much too. though in the morning yea -.- sighs.. hmm.. what shld i do abt that issues? sighs.. i've been sighing alot lately. but yea. i like teo ee and esther tan and hong too who tries to cheer me up when ( Read more... )