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i dont know what to say and i dont know what im feeling. i get mixed emotions when i see you. i dont want to betray her. i dont see it as a right thing. i really hope. i'll just have someone to rely on soon before i collapse from trying hard not to collapse. these few days have been very screwed cause of pw. urgh. maybe it's obvious tt i show that im unhappy but what can i do? zzz. must learn to adapt and work with ppl that you cant work with bah i suppose.
if you dont talk to me, i belive i have enough self discipline to refrain myself from talking to you. i hope i can do it. since there wont be anymore reasons for us to communicate after sometime in the near future. so just stop talking to me. maybe to you it doesnt pose as any problems, but to me yes.i need to get a grip on myself before i continue to fall. i need to put a stop to this.