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The weather is finally warming up some, and I can't wait for when the snow is all gone for good. My life is a pretty good one right now, even though I never came into that 'money' that the psychic said I would. LOL> She was right about most other things though, so if I believe her, than this will be a much better year for me than the last year.
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I'm finally going to start therapy this week. It's something I've been wanting to do for myself for quite a while now. Actually, since that incident that happened in November with my partner. It brought up a lot of deep issues for me, and I realized that it was mostly childhood crap that I've stuffed all these years. Before then, it was just a ( Read more... )

I had a short 24 hour adventure driving my son up to South Dakota. I was going to leave Saturday morning, but then changed my mind and decided to leave Friday night instead. I took my son over to my mother's so he could say goodbye to her, even though it didn't really matter to him if he did or not. He told me the last time he was at her house, ( Read more... )

In a few more hours, I'll be on my way back to South Dakota. My baby birdie wants to go to school up there, so if I want him to be happy, I have to let him go and let him fly on his own. I really didn't want him going back to the reservation at all. I wasn't going to take him, and I didn't want my sister to take him either. However, that's the ( Read more... )

I am so done with having any kind of toxic people in my life, even if they are family members.  All this shit starting, because I wrote one, ONE, e-mail to an ex-friend because I was hurt.  Then all this shit has to happen, with her attacking me publicly, and then all this other drama happens with my family because she has to act like she's the ( Read more... )

Dang!  I missed my writer's group meeting today.  I slept until after noon and didn't get up in time.  That's one positive thing I'm actively doing for myself and to enrich my life.  There's also this 'lesbian' book club that I want to get involved with too, even though I don't consider myself to be a 'lesbian'.  I figured I could learn more about ( Read more... )

Okay, I spent all day at work today, trying not to cry, and feeling it all build up in my chest anyways.  Yes, maybe I did misread an ex-friends intentions, but after her slamming me publicly in a forum we both hang out at, I really don't think so.  A real friend would never have taken it to that level, and stooped so low.  I didn't help matters ( Read more... )

Didn't get much sleep at all last night.  I'm not as upset as I was, but it still bothers me a great deal.  I would never have done something like that to her.  Maybe I'm just blowing things out of proportion, but I don't think so.  That would be invalidating my feelings and minimizing them.  I know, rationally, that not all women will betray you ( Read more... )

I think I probably have trust issues to begin with.  I don't trust just anyone.  When ever I do make the mistake of trusting someone, or confiding in them (girl to girl talks are poison), something happens that makes me see the folly of my ways.

I made the mistake of being too open with Dingbat Floozy one night.  She starts hitting on my partner ( Read more... )