I went to my first al anon meeting tonight. It was good. I learned that I need to let Trey go and do what he wants and to not try and control him or give him rules. I need to distance myself so that he doesn't hurt me emotionally any more. I should try and not get angry or anxious, but that will be hard. There was a really nice lady there that I ( Read more... )

I am just so confused and frustrated with life at the moment...I want so badly so many things but it feels like I keep reaching and falling short, or getting pushed down ( Read more... )

well, i am in a mood to ramble at the moment. i am quite content with my life and feeling genuinely happy. i just got a new job to start on august 1st...that will be good to start something new on that day because it is mine and mark's anniversary, and it will be good to be busy rather than sitting around thinking too much. it felt so good to turn ( Read more... )

life and love
Current mood: contemplative

free to live
love at will
do i live to love
or love to live
i can be myself now
but it hasn't been just me
for so long
i forgot
myself

i want to fall in love
with life
laughter and smiles
every day
wake up with a smile
anticipating
more happiness

So, now I have started off on a new life in a new year. I am in Austin now, in my new apartment with my new roommate, Laura. So much has gone on since I last wrote...my life is changing rapidly, and hopefully for the better. I do wish that all boys would just disappear!!! POOF! I am having to work out things for myself to see what will become ( Read more... )

i had one of the best nights of my life last night. actually this whole last week has been fairly incredible. i am figuring out that i will be happy without mark, and that i really can let him go and hope for him to find someone better for him and his needs than i am. we have grow into different people, and i think more so for him than for me, ( Read more... )

so, now i am officially a drunken writer. mark went off with his friends to hang out after leaving me at home. it isn't my fault that i hadn't eaten since lunch, so my three drinks went straight to my head ( Read more... )

had a pretty productive day today. i hope it doesn't bother anyone that i don't use correct punctuation or spell check...if it does, then fuck off and don't read my special thoughts!!:) I got some homework done and took my precious baby harriett out to enjoy the beauuuuuuuuuutiful weather ( Read more... )

I am stressing out a lot at the moment. I have made a big decision and won't know until Saturday if It will happen or not ( Read more... )

so, some things i am thankful for ( Read more... )