Ever since I can remember I've been awkward. Not sure if I was visibly awkward to everybody else but I eventually embraced my social anxiety and stresses and straight up awkward-ness to get to where I am today. Which is still awkward and unknowing and confused. I stand for things for never really fight for things, I want to have a say but never ( Read more... )

2 years? wow, I'm really impressive. Like a bandit in the night, suddenly I'm 34 am somehow missed the pyramid schemes against me, phew. nobody wanted mary kay or ...I did want lularoe leggings, they were buttery smooth. nothing is ever worth $25 for experiencing being comfortable in house. wanna look good going out? you wont ever...you will ( Read more... )

Oh seriously what the fuck ( Read more... )

I just typed out so much shit and it just went away. Super frustrating. Anyways I'm fucking 32 now, I have had 2 abortions, 1 at 19 and one at 30. I'm pro choice and don't regret that shit, sorry I had to be the one to let you down, but life is what you make it and well I haven't made it so great but I try. I have my 2 sons now. They are my ( Read more... )

Dude fuck you livejournal.

I woke up on December 22 at 9:30 in the morning, had to do my business seeing as I was 39 weeks and 2 days pregnant. After I went to the restroom I stood up and water poured out of me...I very awkwardly googled what it's like to have your water break. Even after months of pregnancy classes I still was unsure and didn't know what was going on. After ( Read more... )

Oh what paths I've taken to get me where I am today. Decisions. Choices. Past. Present. Future. It seems I've lost track of myself here in the last couple of years, succumbing to defeat. Surrounding myself with negativity within myself. Now I question my entire existence because I get the privilege to bring a child into this world under not so ( Read more... )

So I was reading past entries and the fourth or fifth one down I was discussing how I'll be on probation for two years...sentenced a year after my third DUI. So roughly 3 years later, one year on the SCRAMX anklet, sixty days spent at Tazwell County Jail and another $900 wasted on one more extra set of alcohol classes for a failed drug test (failed ( Read more... )

I always seriously laugh my ass off whenever I find my way back to this silly old journal. Things are changing everyday whether I like it or not and quicker as time goes on. I find that the older I get the more kept to myself I am. I'm okay with that I guess, I have nothing to prove and couldn't care otherwise ( Read more... )

Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.

Kaleb
Logan
Aidan
Sofi

...
Jack
Shadow.

Grandma Brod
Death bed? Nursing home?

Help.

The best I can.