friends are awesome

seriously, awesomeness

ok, so im a bitch... right... big deal

you know I would be nice to you when you make decisions, not leave me hanging

when were you even planning to tell me??

I mean, really...

And then people wonder why I'm a bitch etc...

Well, the world can fuck off, I'm fed up trying to make other people happy now.

Its my life, ( Read more... )

Tons of stuff I want to write, thats better suited in here than in my other journal

Today I'm actually gonna stick to at least part of my oh-so-healthy diet plan
So I'm not eating dinner or eating anything till tomorrow
Not that it makes up for all the crap that I ate earlier... =/

But that isn't working, because I want to drink.  Just drink till I don ( Read more... )

woot
I still want to fucking die
I planned it a week ago then disassociated
So why not do it today? I have more pills, ok so its a half dose per tablet, but I could take all the ones Im supposed to take until next friday when I see her again... Take tons of asprin and some paracetamol, see what else I can find.
I have cider, I have vodka, I have a new ( Read more... )

Last night did not end well....

I went down to see Andy eventually, but told him I probably wouldnt stay...

He said I stank of vodka, I told him that if it stopped me from doing other things then it couldnt be completly(sp?) bad thing...

I told him that I had spent all weekend wanting to kill myself, feeling crap

He was silent and said nothing, then ( Read more... )

I am invisible

The world hates me....

I wish I was dead

We shall see what happens in the end....

The only person to come this weekend and ask how I am is Paddy. He gave me a hug aswell, but only because I was so close to tears (for the hundreth time this weekend)

My wrist  hurts already, but I want to make it work more..
I want to go out and buy ( Read more... )

I feel invisible

I live in a building with a lot of other people, as many as maybe 50. There are another 8 people on my floor but I dont really get on with any of them, at least, not the ones on my floor. The ones I do get on with, well...

I managed to stay in my room all day on friday, not seeing anyone, same on thurday evening. on friday i saw ( Read more... )

Last night all just went so wrong... I was in the union, but I was really freaking out by the amount of people that were ( Read more... )

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