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Changes
Well. it's been a while since I've blogged. I'm kind of over it. I realized this morning as Mick mentioned it that I hadn't blogged about some of the more important things that have happened in my life. I just kinda lost the urge to RUN to the internet and type out a blog about what's going on in my life. If you're important to me, you already know ( Read more... ) -
Dynamo
I forget a lot that life isn't a fairy-tale. I want things to feel absolutely perfect ALL OF THE TIME. I read other's words about their seemingly perfect relationships and say "hey, why isn't mine like that?"
But it is. It's all a matter of perspective. Sometimes mine gets clouded and confused. I forget how much I love the man I'm living with and ( Read more... ) -
Lessons
The Dance
Almost a figment of
My imagination
Whispering secret bedtime stories
A lingering lilt lulling little lids
Heavy breathing, tiny sighs
A drowsy mist encapsulates
A tiny timid hand meets
An extended arm in a sturdy grasp
A stimulating song sends them spiraling
Into a frenzy of rhythmic steps
Pacing grows more and more rapid
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Trust.
Here's a thought that's been plaguing me lately...
It all started when a friend asked if I trusted him. I've known this person for a while now, so yeah, on a surface level, I trust him-- with certain things. Certain things I know he can handle and is capable of.
And then he asked if I trusted him completely.
Well... no. G'duh. No brainer.
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The Same Black Line
Lolling tongues lapping up lunacy frenetically
Outside, the house looks cozy; settled.
Tremors rock and threaten to level it from within.
Catch the glint of the lambent orb in the night sky and
Ignore the rush of cool air ‘gainst bared flesh
His beaming face distracts the immaculate
From the precious treasure stolen away
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Precious Stones
Mother Mary won’t you whisper?
Whips, whisper louder, I cannot hear
G.ood. O.rderly. D.irection. Please, guide me,
For I don’t know what happened to PERSONal
Response.
Ability?
Beat the martyr, a little harder.
I cannot hear the pearls of (or) wisdom that He speaks.
Yes I capitalized His pronoun.
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All's quiet on the Western Front... well sorta.
I need a job. Badly. I'm going to put an icepick through my skull if I don't start contributing to the funds of the household. Sure, I cook, I clean, I play guitar hero--- alright I'm sort of productive! But as much as Mick is gracious enough to pay the mortgage and keep food in the fridge, he can't support me. Car insurance, cell phone bill, ( Read more... ) -
MISSING!
Due to the family situation and other random stupid things I was very upset last night. We were sure we left Red Bear in the car. I was going to bring him to the play party after Mourn’s Gather. Needless to say we were a little "out-of-sorts" when we left Boonton (I wonder why
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Am I exceptionally angry lately or do people just suck?
Maybe I have less and less tolerance for people. Or maybe my meds aren’t working like they used to…
Today was my little brother’s birthday. I showed up early, really early, because I was having lunch with people in the area. So I’m hanging out, generally ignored by my mother and stepfather and blissfully exempt from the harassment of my little ( Read more... ) -
Rebirth
Well then.
You know, they say that life rarely goes according to plans. I underestimated the size of the monkey wrench that can be thrown into the machine, however.
My whole world imploded starting February 18th. The day started as normal. A morning workout. A hearty breakfast for me and Mick. A kiss goodbye and we went our seperate ways.
Next thing I ( Read more... )