Thank you. Your comments helped me immensely. My sense of self has come back, if only temporarily.

Just wish I knew who you were, but I may have an idea as to why you don't want me too.

One day. Let me respond to you in kind.

The "I spend way to much time on the internet" moment of realization #153:

I was writing a message and spelled the band "Google Dolls" instead of "Goo Goo Dolls".

They tell me to listen to the "little voice". It will tell me the right thing to do.

Doesn't really help if you're ScHiZOPhrEniC! -snarfs

Ok, I'm not really schizo (but I didn't say I wasn't crazy!). But I do have a battle raging in my head as to what the hell I should be doing. Which option is best for me? What are the pros and cons of each ( Read more... )

I just read my entire livejournal over. Instead of writing the 18 page paper I'm supposed to do. I'm sooooo not in the school mentality anymore. I know it's because I went from living on campus to commuting once a week... because I work a full-time job with room for growth... because... because...

Well, I don't give a shit about Quakers.

Don't get ( Read more... )

PDF is over. And... I'm not sure how I feel right now. Sure, I felt amazing... like ME for the first time in a while. During the first 3 days. I think it's because I *shouldn't* be in a committed relationship for a while. I've done it all my life and I really need to be worrying about me right now, not my significant other ( Read more... )

Sleeping Alone for the first time in... ages it seems. I bought a new bedspread, it wasn't cheap, but I was celebrating. Independence. Finding myself. It's hard with the close proximity of the men I used to be so co-dependent with interchangably. But at the same time, it's quite enthralling. I think this is what I needed all along... not the ' ( Read more... )

it's all an illusion...

I shouldn't have even called my mom today. I made the mistake of thinking she can't hurt me if she was all the way in South Carolina. That we can go about our lives and have a somewhat decent relationship. But no... it never changes ( Read more... )

I'm having some mixed emotions, but the one I feel the most right now is anger. Misdirected as it may be... but it can't be misdirected really, cuz I dunno who I'm angry at ( Read more... )

So tired ( Read more... )