my closest childhood friend in the world is leaving me ( Read more... )

i am a disgusting slobbass mess with no future, no hope, and no sense

i dont know how to explain that..

..im floating

im up in plymouth today, in addition to two other days this week. im babysitting for this woman who goes to my church (she has a three year old daughter). these people have a nice house, also a pool and a dog. so me and the kid are gonna go swimming but i dont have a bathing suit here so i swim in only a beater and a thong. i felt a little weird ( Read more... )

scene 1: 9:00 am, me thrashing my body around epilepticly and crying like im insane ( Read more... )

its very strange how just plain having people that love you can make you do anything, or not. how just knowing that somebody, anybody at all, loves you can change you whole mind ( Read more... )

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhgggggggggggggggg ( Read more... )

its tuesday morning and i somehow woke up at 9:30. my sisters having the surgery at 11 so i sit here awaiting for these next few hours. im use to this, it happens alot in my family, but this particular surgery is extra dangerous. she could bleed alot more that normal which is very bad. i know everythings gonna be ok, or else people would be more ( Read more... )

there's something different, something WRONG with me, and im screaming this and screaming it, but i dont think anybody can hear me, and i dont know what if anything will ever fix it.

maybe i was never meant to be born