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my closest childhood friend in the world is leaving me
i cant just say that shes leaving, shes growing up, or shes going off to collage. i have to saying shes leaving me..i hate myself
but god, she is
she was always the one who would pick up the pieces of me when i lost everything, and i dont know if i can rely completely on anyone else.
i dont know what to expect life to be like without her. and i dont know how shes going to handle this, she held on to her childhood and imagination for so long and now she actually has to let some of it go....
everything is so hard to understand
like,
why must i back aaway, and make things difficult, why cant i relax, why am i so anxious..about everything. is there a problem?? i dont even know.i cant even tell.
i cant just say that shes leaving, shes growing up, or shes going off to collage. i have to saying shes leaving me..i hate myself
but god, she is
she was always the one who would pick up the pieces of me when i lost everything, and i dont know if i can rely completely on anyone else.
i dont know what to expect life to be like without her. and i dont know how shes going to handle this, she held on to her childhood and imagination for so long and now she actually has to let some of it go....
everything is so hard to understand
like,
why must i back aaway, and make things difficult, why cant i relax, why am i so anxious..about everything. is there a problem?? i dont even know.i cant even tell.