Life's alright at the moment...nothing too special going on. I had a really crappy weekend though and it was wrapped up with having gastro Sunday & yesterday....very unpleasant! spent the entire day in bed yesterday ( Read more... )

Space Bound by Eminem

We touch, I feel a rush, we clutch, it isn't much
But it's enough to make me wonder what's in store for us
It's lust, it's torturous, you must be a sorceress, cuz you just
Did the impossible; gained my trust, don't play games it'll be dangerous
If you fuck me over, cuz if I get burnt
Ima show you what it's like to hurt
Cuz I been ( Read more... )

Tomorrow I start the school year. I got a 40% contract which means i work 2 full days a week. i may have already posted about this but i dont remember so if i did, whatever? lol I am so so so excited about it. It will definitely change my life around again. I am so sick of moping around wasting away my days trying to fill them with distractions. at ( Read more... )

So I went over to Brendans tonight around 2 am and he was a moody fuck the entire time. finally it got to the point where i was like k im just gonna not say anything he was like yeah ok lets see how long that lasts....well it lasted for a good while till he fell asleep, then i looked at my phone, saw it was 3:25 and said "k im gonna go" hes like k ( Read more... )

I am in need of a good venting and since no one is up right now, this is where it's going. Since last week I've been trying to not give in to brendan. Taking my cousins advice I've stopped sleeping over at his place to make him miss me and realize he can't just get everything and anything he wants from me at his will when I constantly get let down ( Read more... )

Brendan apologized for the bullshit 2 weeks ago...I am horribly hooked on him somehow. He doesnt want a relationship which I knew. But he expects things to somehow change between us? Ive flat out told him I wont go there with him....JUST BLAH. I enjoy his company way too much to just cut him out completely. He'd be the perfect guy for me if he'd ( Read more... )

 schooool is done! summer vacation is OFFICIALLY here!! anddd i have nothing planned...at alll. I bought a season pass for the amusement park here...that will hopefully occupy a few of my days! Ive also been trying to keep busy with the gym. first thing i do when i get up is get my arse to the gym. did some cardio on monday, my new amazing circuit ( Read more... )

 So on friday i went for dinner with Chris to talk about everything. I have now come to the conclusion that hes kind of an idiot...He still likes me but doesnt want to get back together because he thinks I'll have another night like i had the night before he dumped me (which is why he ended it) and he cant deal with that....now ok, I agreed and ( Read more... )

Last night we had our annual bbq. A ton of people showed up, a ton of people convinced me to try to convince brendan to come. he told me he would several times and of course bailed. not only did he bail but at 2 am had the nerve to ask me to go to see him at his place. Chris showed up though at 1:45 am and we walked to the park together where i ( Read more... )

 Nothing great to post about...just living my life day bye day, doing whatever makes time pass. ive been busy but not truly HAPPY i think.

I miss Chris. He was at the bar on monday and we didnt even acknoledge each other. Kind of killed me...

Brendan's been good but like, hes just there to be used by me really.

I met a guy from toronto  on tuesday ( Read more... )