well i finally got of my ass tonight, swam half a mile and ate an apple, feeling ok not as good as i would want it to be,

going to have something to eat when i wake up tomorrow cause i think thats why im binging!! so im goin to check n see what i could have.

wish me bones

how to explain??? the community ive been ive been in for about two years is FEATHERS!"" its a great community, full of beautiful people..full of support.

i havent been commenting in a lot the last few months just due to the fact im scared incase someone has joined who is one of those people who want to become like this however i dont judge like that ( Read more... )

So heres my attempt to back up & reboot!! This is who I am, we all cant get what we want so if this is who I am...Im going to be fucking magic at it!!

I read something yesterday that I cant stop thinking about, it was on faceparty! & it came from my ex's girlfriend...

"Meaning of Life: Do or Do not, there is no try"

Is that right?? I kind of like it ( Read more... )

Suffering? What exactly does that word mean, or do we finally have a chance in saying we suffer from this when your lying in bed with the dry boke or crying yourself to sleep; wondering and asking yourself what you've done so bad to "suffer" like we do!

Theres' so many young girls,including myself on these livejournal things and I have doubt in ( Read more... )

Title today is: its really got a hold of me i think. its because i really do think that. i cant stop starving myself...binging...and worst of all being sick! my friend made me dinner last night, it was the first i ate, i only ate the salad of it and one wedgie...i felt disgusted! i went straight home, to be sick. mum was there so i thought id sit ( Read more... )

 so fed up by the way and even more fed up of me saying im fed up!!! doesnt anything ever go the way u want it??? i can remember when i was younger everything was better,in every form!! i would do anything to stay in those years,i really would!!

day went terrible yet again and i did start of with good thoughts, i took some laxatives last night,a ( Read more... )

So after quite a good day n all that, Jordan phoned...i was shocked!! after spending a few months with him i thought it was time to tell him i really liked him so i mailed him telling him...no fucking reply!!! asshole!! he tells me everytime he see's me, gives me this whole speech and the minute i tell him no fucking reply!!! which has made me ( Read more... )

Ive started to see my hip bones sticking out and my chest/colar bones are more "there" hehe if that makes sense, so im getting more of a boost to get of my fat ass and work out. havent had anything to eat today so im goin to go a speed walk after typing this!!

eating nothing more than fruit and veggies and trying to exercise as much as i can, im ( Read more... )

omg i was so drunk last night and bebo'd jordan saying tht i missed his banter arrrggghhh!!!  and i thot that sounded like i missed him i know....so i went to delete it but he was on line!!!!! hahahaha fuck me,

right now im feeling as though i dont even want to see him again!!! seriously....who does that????

so if i ever see him again i swear to god ( Read more... )

 so today i feel absolutely huge i mean really huge!!! its so fucking annoying and remebering what my body used to be like is even more depressing im not joking. i hate it. its like, i never know what to eat thats the honest truth, thats why i try not to eat at all cause i cant seem to just say ill wake up and have i dont know something like cup of ( Read more... )