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I'm 25 now...prolly 10 years since I started this journal...and Im still a fucking failure. I still cut myself for fucking pleasure. Lord knows it's not for attention. I mean, I'm very close to having legit roomates for the first time in like 3 years, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm currently bleeding for my own pleasure. I love my future ( Read more... ) -
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Gotta love it when they jump on an opportunity... -
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Blood is beautiful..... -
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Do you ever see what it looks like underneath your skin??? I have, what I believed to be many times before, but this time was full of frustration, anger, and above all anxiety, and then I really saw inside myself...more literally than I ever had before. One of the many reasons I was uncomfortable being with Brandon. He is incredible, understanding ( Read more... ) -
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Where am I???
Who am I?????
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does it even mean anything?
#cheflife #cooklife hashtag this hashtag that, bunch of bullshit. This is my life, my dream, my future. I can't even pretend I'm no one now, even though I am not someone yet, the ones that are some bodies know me, and if I fuck up now I will never succeed in the future. That pressure pushes me to be better than I was yesterday, every single day. ( Read more... ) -
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Well, no matter how I try, i don't seem to be able to overcome the add. Even if I'm conscious of it, and tell myself to try harder and focus, it just doesn't work like that. I'm slow, at everything, period. But I'm really good at multitasking and doing a lot of things at once, the more the merrier. I'm a terrible prep cook. Try as I might, nothing ( Read more... ) -
No such thing as perfection
I'm finally a college graduate, and I'm continuing my education. I have two dream jobs, both are in the top 10 hot spots of SA. I'm about to not be broke again. I made a new best friend, I know we were meant to be. I have a home boy who smokes me out regularly and I know I can trust with my life, and despite sexual tension I know he will never ever ( Read more... ) -
On graduation
Jamming hard to Krewella's Troll mix 10 most of the night, just changed it to #8 for a change of pace, might do 1 in a bit and finish off with 4 for the last mile. I can't believe there's but a few more financial sheets and a history project and final between me and graduation. For a long time I really doubted I would ever find something worthwhile ( Read more... )