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Well, no matter how I try, i don't seem to be able to overcome the add. Even if I'm conscious of it, and tell myself to try harder and focus, it just doesn't work like that. I'm slow, at everything, period. But I'm really good at multitasking and doing a lot of things at once, the more the merrier. I'm a terrible prep cook. Try as I might, nothing is going to get me to cut 50 bunches of green onions, cleaned and trimmed, correctly, in under two hours. But people notice these things. Time is more important than quality and perfection. If they want speed, they came to the wrong girl. I am a perfectionist, meticulous to a fault. But they also made a mistake in challenging me with their shit talk. Somebody wants to say I'm slow as shit?? Somebody is going to have their ass handed to them. I'm going to prove them wrong, it's what I do. I'm going to show them my strengths and show them I can overcome my challenges. I may cave and take adderall, I'm undecided so far. But no body is going to tell me I'm too slow for a job, because I'm done giving them a reason to say so. Thank you Jamie, for being the honest person so many couldn't, including Brandon. I need people in my life to tell me when I'm fucking up because I will never grow otherwise. Thank you honesty....