i miss my friends. regardless of what happened, the underlying fact is i would second guess all the steps that brought me here just to have a bit of what i lost, friends are priceless, you cant replace the past.

I had this awful dream last night. I was going to warm some coffee up in the microwave. But when I opened it up I noticed something odd. There was a bag of small marshmallows partially melted, which is not the odd part. On top of those partially melted marshmallows was a kitten (the odd part). I know, I know, that’s the most awful thing. The ( Read more... )

I need something more. That’s all, just something to wake up for. Otherwise I’ll keep this. I could be delusional, or just too goddamn depressed to think straight, but how long should this hurt ( Read more... )

happy new year, and on and on… It seems I’m losing my hold on this joke here. I should have something to look forward to, but when you’re in a hole this deep it’s hard to see anything at all.

Its been a while since i have been able to make an update. Microsoft has decided to deny me access to my own computer. Something about me owing them 99 bucks for the copy of winxp i have been using, go figure. So here i am at work in a weak attempt to update. I have some new friends whom i have been hanging out with quite regularly now. My ( Read more... )

yesterday sucked full force. breakdowns are never fun, but now comes the build up and i cant describe the humility i feel. I wrote this long spiel about it last night at work, but it spanned a few pages and i dont have the energy for that at the moment, perhaps i will add it later. Regardless i have to work on being honest with myself and stop ( Read more... )

its been a sad few days and im feeling a bit like shit, but i have learned a few things and feel like posting it. but seriously, NO MORE DRAMA, i have a feeling that lack of communication and miscomunication are the cruelest by-prouducts of language, and im swimming in it.

christ how long has it been since i last posted something new. Its funny cause i seem to be on the interweb waaaaaay too much for my own good. Its an issue of motivation really. I lead a relatively uneventful life at the moment and i cant see the purpose of me rambling on and on about nothing. Yet judging by other live journals posts i read i ( Read more... )

there are no words to describe how i feel right now...

Here it comes, that glorious explosion. Fire to blow apart the night into gentle blues and reds ( Read more... )