Memory seeping out of the fog of ciggarettes and alcohol. I woke up in your bed clueless and alone. "where am i" came first, and logically so. I quickly gained some sense of placement standing upright your brick walled basement. "oohhhhhh" i whispered to myself, things were beginning to make a bit of sense ( Read more... )

Its wierd, but i find some sick comfort in the knowledge that everything im feeling right now is just a lack of a few fucking chemicals in my body. Im haveing withdrawls thats all. Still, i wish my empty bed wasnt so empty...ehhh fuck it ( Read more... )

Ok here it is, one of those pathetic im so miserable posts. What happened? Things went from increadible to...well to this...and I dont even know what "this" is. She left my car saying "im gunna have to do some re-evaluating". I said "do what you feel you have too" then pressed my fingers against my lips and carried the kiss to where it now ( Read more... )

today couldn't have ended better, although in reality ive got about 8 more hours. I took a trip out to see my family today. I have some new siblings whom i feel like shit for almost forgeting. Yet she shone a new light on what time with the family can be like, made it fun actually. I usually dreaded the hugs and the "look at you, why i used to ( Read more... )

I am rather fond of telling lies. As a kid I was a fibber with a knack for talking myself in and out of countless adventures. I would weave a web then hang myself with a single line. It was practice really, trial and error. With time you learn to plan as far ahead as possible, limit your contingents and never ever attempt to convince the anyone ( Read more... )

its like last november, only 2.0, or perhaps even 2.7...all i know is i just cant get enough!

is it wierd that i miss you when im not there

Well well well, things are moving along at a fair pace now as things tend to whether we like it or not. I cant go to frisco for my 21st birfday. But i'll make it there eventually, like a month or so, but i need to be wise about all this. With 21 just around the bend i feel like i should listen to that little voice of wisdom that i have so ( Read more... )

Welp about 26 hours ago i smoked my last cigarette. So how do i feel now, great, i can breath and it doesn't hurt, i dont smell so bad, my nose works, and even water tastes differently. Will this fast of nicotine last? Will oxygen rule over carbon monoxide? Yes. For everything needs to be in moderation. Balance is vital to a helthy mind. And ( Read more... )

dance party tonight at some loft downtown, yeah real hip i fucking know. It was supposed to be electroclash, yet somehow the crowd wasn't having it. I think the most people i saw dancing at one time was 5, out of like 50 people thats not very good, so i guess it ended up just being a party. Regardless i had a good time, albert went with me and ( Read more... )