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I've always been an extremely lazy person and you kind of get away with that until high school. My parents had pretty high hopes for me and of course, they were frustrated that I never did my school work or anything at all really. I stopped going to school when I was like 15-16 and I kind of just never went back. During that time I basically turned ( Read more... ) -
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I know that in order for me to like feel truly comfortable with myself I have to be open with others about me being gay but its just so hard. I've spent so much of my life feeling different and now I feel like I usually fit in? Theres just this comfortableness in pretending to be straight that I don't want to let go of. Still, its time to figure it ( Read more... ) -
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whyyyy do i keep on getting all these ridiculously self destructive feelings?! its like i LIKE CHICAGO. yes i am bored often but my roommates are great genuine people who dont have drug problems and if i was less shy im sure i would be having a ball or some shit ( Read more... ) -
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I'll erase the memories
Okayyyyyyy! I have two jobs right now, because I somehow snagged a job at white house black market! You might be wondering, how did a highschool drop out get two jobs? Yeah, I don't know either lol. Hilarious that starmarket rejected me but I got hired at a mall and Harvard. But then again I made the mistake of being completely honest at starmarket ( Read more... ) -
You've got no real ambition, you won't get very far.
Sooooo I'm outta highschool and into the working life. Gonna work on getting my diploma in some sort of weird slightly embarrassing way in september. I'm working at a bilingual daycare, kind of. Its okay..I guess I overestimated how much I like kids? I mean I like kids don't get me wrong. Just not nearly as much as I thought I did...or even that ( Read more... ) -
We're nothing but a sham it seems
I feel like I treat people with more respect then I should. But maybe I'm just thinking too highly of myself, I have gotten very holier than thou lately. I'm just a little tired of everything. I've been feeling really old and young lately. Like...I'm too old to pull so much shit but at the same time I'm too young to pull so much shit haha. I've ( Read more... ) -
You big disgrace.
I wish I was shitfaced everyday man. Such an asshole thing to say but whatever. Getting drunk in the day is kind of symbolic of a problem but there is something beautiful about being blurry drunk and seeing the sun. I don't know. I've been making a half hearted effort to sober up. I haven't touched a drink in like eight days. Thats like three more ( Read more... ) -
Some foreign presence you feel comes creeping through, some stream of hope.
Woke up at three o'clock in the morning next to my friend Joel on the floor. Woke him up and we stumbled home. Literally have no recollection of the night before. I'm a big fan of new years, I'm all about new starts. I always tell myself "Oh, I'm going to do better this year, you can do this shit." Its never gonna happen but its nice to hope. 2009 ( Read more... )