I'm staring at my reflection, watching with detachment as my beard is shrinking. I'm lost in the sound of the razor and I'm not all here sometimes. I lay in bed in the dark and I wonder about people I know, far flung, distant in the night sky. I think about the stars crashing down upon us and I don't know how to feel anymore. There are moments ( Read more... )

There is no discerning the break or changing, it is merely a blending of emotions. I’m wrapping christmas presents and staring at the tree, looking at the lights and they began to refract, to blur and shift. I keep thinking of terrible things, of things that come crawling from the womb of the earth, dripping with poison and stinking of sex. I’m ( Read more... )

My heart beats loudly, an unbalanced cymbal that crashes against its stand when struck. I can hear it in my ears, filling up my skull, blasting my brains into a mush, but I don't mind, I don't mind at all. I'm getting colder and colder as each day passes, bundling up and still I shake, I quiver in some cold wind and yet I'm still warmer than you, ( Read more... )

I had a nightmare and now I cannot sleep. I was sitting on the floor and you were next to me, a movie was playing on the television and I couldn't understand what was being said and you kept translating. Your voice was filling the room, a droning sound that began to fill my skull, a hight pitched buzzing that was making my eyes hurt, making the ( Read more... )

If I can't be happy, why are you allowed to be? I'm drunk, cursing into voicemails and leaving messages that drip venom. You broke my heart, you ruined me, cast me upon the fire of love and left me here to burn, turning around and walking away after your bones had been warmed. There is no field of flowers to hold hands in anymore, I am falling ( Read more... )

We're sitting in my car, in the cold and darkness of a winter night. The engine is off and I'm looking ahead as if I were driving, my hands clutch the wheel in a vice grip of regret. I didn't mean to hit you, but you kept pushing the subject and I had kept moaning how I didn't, couldn't talk about it. You kept on though, stabbing your finger into ( Read more... )

I lean against the doorway, breathing in deep and loud bursts. I can feel the blood on my hands starting to get sticky and the cuts on my face are aching. My clothes are ruined but I did it to defend the one I loved. I took the others head in my hands and I beat it against the wall, screaming and wailing in some other worldly tongue. The music ( Read more... )

The wanderer fell to the ground, face first into the dust and grit of the strange and silent desert. The world had moved on what seemed like ages ago, but the wanderer still carried the old ways, he clutched them to his heart, a flame glowing weakly in a horn of a long dead ram. He had struggled for so long, clawed his way through such great ( Read more... )

I awoke one morning to find my windows were all broken open. There was glass in my hair and beard, there was glass in my blankets and covers. The snow was coming in between the gaps in my blinds and piling up over my body. I sat up and thought about how everything was going all wrong because of the choices I refused to make, how I quelled the fire ( Read more... )

I check my phone, and I forget that I didn't lock it. The screen will light up, and when it does, my heart skips a beat. I realize it is just the screensaver kicking in, oh well. I'm chainsmoking and listening to desperate guys singing about desperate times, and all I can feel is a peaceful sadness gliding over me. Being this way isn't so bad ( Read more... )