I spent years training for this, how much I had pushed aside, how much I had ignored for this moment, for this one singular moment. I can feel the lunar landscape beneath my feet, the crunch of its dust and its utter lifelessness. The radio in my helmet begins to crackle and then the voices of my control coordinator buzzes in my ear. They want to ( Read more... )

I rode across The Desert, the one that men and women fear, the one where people go into, but they never come out, only their ghosts. I rode across it because I had nothing left in the land where I was born, the land where I grew up, and the land where I was meant to die. I could not think of anything to do when you were gone, so I prepared myself ( Read more... )

I sit in my chair and watch the wind in the leaves from my vantage point. I stand at the sink and look out on my backyard. I look at all these things, these collections of items that create the ideal of home and I smile, but I yearn for more. Maybe, I won't call this place and it's collection of things my home soon. Maybe I will be in some far off ( Read more... )

Whenever I lay down in bed, I can hear them. I can hear them laughing, dancing, talking to each other, and I wonder what is they have that I do not. I am not missing vital pieces to make me a human, maybe a functioning person, but I am human. There is not a great hole in my center, there are things there, good and bad. The serpents den of my heart ( Read more... )

For the longest time, I felt I would die upon the altar of your teeth, amongst the hills of your lips and the soft landscape of your skin. I thought I would die whenever you came near, I could feel my heart beating so loud, so fast, so hard that it would hurt and I had to excuse myself. I would sit in another room and listen to you talking with ( Read more... )

It's been two long years, two long years since I went out into the Kings Forest and chopped down a delicate white tree. I chopped it down under the cover of night so the huntsmen would not catch me, they would be busy sleeping or drinking in their cabins along the border of the forest. I hauled the majority of it away on that night, and what I ( Read more... )

Sitting up by the phone, watching the screen turn black and empty the room of what little light there was, I knew you wouldn't call, you had no reason to do so. But I had hoped, quietly, with a desperate heat building in my chest, that you would. There is no avail here, we ran out of it a long time ago, a long, long, impossibly long time ago when I ( Read more... )

The truth? The truth is all anyone wants, they need it, they craze it, they ask for it, whispering in my ear, tell us, tell us, tell us, and I'm a coward, so I lie, I'm fine, everything is okay, no I don't mind, it's okay, I won't cry. But in reality, I'm heartbroken, I listen to the sound of the surf, the inhaling and the exhaling of the winds, I ( Read more... )

You said goodbye, and walked off from where I was kneeling, the box open in my hands. You never gave a reason and I spent so long thinking about why you did it, why you went away to a land where I can't go. I can't go anywhere anymore, I'm weighed down by all this guilt, all this sadness, all these unanswered questions drifting the air, a million ( Read more... )

There is no catalyst anymore, nothing that drives my emotions up and causes the dial to spike. I cannot rend my soul with torturous thoughts and stoke the fire of endless misery, endless despair. I have come to the realization that I am simply boring and insufferably dramatic at times ( Read more... )