Comments | ebetha: Operation: Overlords.

ebetha

Operation: Overlords.

Oct 28, 2006 06:16

So I've decided to call today: Operation Overlords. I've been doing pretty well so far today. Been alone for the past couple hours just to my thoughts and the occational person on the internet talking to me. But over all I've been alone and I'm doing pretty well with it ( Read more... )

out, chuck, carmen, ex, operation: overlords, 2-year, car, blake

Comments 4

djrayray October 28 2006, 20:15:08 UTC

It was pleasant seeing you last night.

... well, technically, this morning.

Ray

ebetha October 28 2006, 23:30:26 UTC

It was nice to see you as well

djmalessence October 28 2006, 21:04:48 UTC

At the risk of sounding harsh, and accepting that I'd do nothing less but give the brutal honesty -- why on earth would you even note, let alone mark, an anniversary that is A) unimportant and B) ridiculous.

So what? Its been 22 minutes since I took a shit. And its been 2 years since it was 2 years ago. You REALLY need to get over it. You are holding on to something pathetically that existed for 1/23rd of your life.

Stop living in the God damn past. Your need to live this stupid one-dimensional existence that revolves completely around Blake gets a tad old. You wish to hold onto a date in time that really means nothing at this juncture, and then use it as a crutch to explain why you are a victim. The issue is you, not Blake. Not the world. You. Forgive yourself and move along.

Until you do that, the gorilla will forever be riding on your back -- and its very droll.

ebetha October 28 2006, 23:38:43 UTC

Perhaps you are right. Maybe I'm holding on to something that was important to me and maybe I'm using it to justify why I treat others that way that I do. Maybe I'm the one that shouldn't have been around that night. Maybe I'm the actual reason that I have turned out this way. But I feel. And with that I remember the things that meant something to me even if they are pathetic and even if it is something in the past. I don't think that it there is anything wrong to note that an event would have been taking place. I don't think that it is wrong to note how I feel on the subject. I don't think that there is anything wrong with it. But then perhaps that's where my head is a little out of whack with the rest of the world and why I'm alone and single and why I'm trying to sort it all out in my own life. Maybe that's why the world turns the way it does. And if it is pathetic then so be it. Then at this very moment that is what I am. That is what I am amounting to at the moment. My bad judgements and mistakes keep bringing ( ... )