Thought I would start writing in my journal again, why, well it just seemed to help me get stuff out that I couldn't usually without spazzing on someone, so today I start again. Its raining today, and I figure we'll leave to go to the gym soon. Currently listening to Nirvana, come as you are...whoo, I wonder who will check this, if anyone, it ( Read more... )

well, it certainly has been a while since i wrote in here, VERY LONG while, but I think I'll just update a few things. Went to grand beach today, getting a pretty rockin tan for only july 1st!! wrote a new song, hopefully someone can give me some feed back, i want to start writing for a band or someone, something, because i'm just filling up with ( Read more... )

AHHHHHHH BOOGERS BOOGERS BOOGERS...ali today I go to the dr. for my meds, this is the first time seeing this doctor, I have no idea what to say really or do. I'm a bit nervous actually, but my mum to be in law says shes really nice so hopefully shes right. I wanna get this crazy depression thing fixed.....i think its worse because of chemicals, ( Read more... )

I like to talk craaaaazzzzy, and bummmmm hole.....cornholio, are you threatening me *babbles off and spits everywhere while she talks* I will get you....ehheha ahehaha......blah!

i got up at 4:45 thisz morning for work....my eyes are still red an poofy...i dunno what to do bout it...oh well money is good, one less worry. last night dan and i had a big awakening. He was sketchy from the weekend a bit, and taking it out on me, and I just wasn't standing for it anymore. I got really mad and wouldn't talk to him, and the ( Read more... )

Well, this is the bottom. I thought i saw bottom but today tops it all. I tried the easy way out. I tried to get away from everyone, and everything that used to make me unhappy, well no nessecarily unhappy, but life more difficult. The shitty thing is, I cared so much about all these people, but as soon as I stopped calling them, they stopped ( Read more... )

Its cold outside, and I'm home alone, I really am waiting to hear back from somewhere i put my resume in, I'm getting desperate. I've been really upset with just about everything lately, well not everything, it seems when I get out of the house by myself and do stuff, life is a ok, but I just feel myself drifting away from people sometimes, ones I ( Read more... )

I was hung over earlier, but now I feel good. I think I just came out of another 3 week long depression slump today, I'm finding myself a little chipper now that its the weekend maybe. I sure am bored lately though, and I think I maybe found a job!!! Oh joy... hehehe anyways all is well today, I'm hope everyone else is ok. I haven't heard ( Read more... )

I go through life trying to trust people, trying to learn everything I can about them. I try so hard to know how they react to certain things. I listen to their voices to know how they really feel. I watch their eyes to see if they tell the truth. I feel something in my life is not right. Do you ever get that feeling? Do you ever get that ( Read more... )

I'm lifted away by my dreams ( Read more... )