I had such a lousy week it's untrue. Yeah, when you find yourself shouting at your Acting teacher, sobbing and basically throwing a tantrum in front of the whole class- YOU NOT DOIN IT RIGHT. And spent every morning wishing I was somewhere else. Contemplated skiving off Thursday but then thought, "I can't skive off RADA." But the work has been ( Read more... )

RADA, consisted of Sight Reading where we had to deliver a piece of factual written eye-witness accounts as if we were delivering them from our own memories. Then an hour and half off because my Alexander Tech teacher was away so I wandered up to American Apparel- ahha, I'm so bourgeois- bought me a nice jumper and dress. Then Period Dance, where I ( Read more... )

So so miserable just now. When it should have been such a lovely weekend. Man was great in The Vortex, lol, coming out, he was accosted by these two really old women who giggled, held onto his hand and told him he was wonderful. They caught sight of me and said conspiratorially, "All the ladies love him!" then went off giggling into the night. So ( Read more... )

As I am at Man's, life is currently bearable. It wasn't driving home last night- we were on the road I had the crash in and I went into hysterics, it was awful. He pulled over and just held onto me while I sobbed.

Court= shittiest day of my life. It's been adjourned for 2 weeks. I was in the waiting room from 9am till 4.30pm. Only got seen at 4pm. I ( Read more... )

Ugh, after tomorrow, which is a rough day anyway with Choral Singing and the terrible teacher, Stage Combat and Classical Text with the teacher WHO WON'T STOP TALKING. Which sounds awful. But then I have the small group Voice lesson that I adore so I really hope that'll make up for what will be a shitty Friday.
Am going back home, having to miss ( Read more... )

Wow, am so officially now the Bad Girl of RADA. Got asked by the Head of Acting, Seb, if I wanted to do a play-reading for one of MA students for the afternoon. Of COURSE I did. But it involved missing Voice and Acting- but wasn't doing anything myself in Acting, I'd be watching other projects. Seb asked all this and seemed to think it would be ( Read more... )

OK, it's pretty fucking exciting when you realise you're the one who gets to go home with the Star. And by star, I'm not even joking. I know there's no way I can convince anyone by words, by I sat watching Act 3 of The Vortex in a little town hall this afternoon, in an audience of middle aged people stunned to silence, watching a man with tears ( Read more... )

It's daft, every time I have interesting stuff to write about, I don't write. I'm so lax these days with my personal diary too, when it would be really useful to keep just now.

RADA: Every day is an improvement but I don't look forward to it yet. I feel alienated and everyone seems to have palled up and I'm still not there. People greeting each ( Read more... )

Friday was better. Marginally. Made friends with lovely Scarlett and Maureen- at least, I felt like I had a genuine connection for the first time, you know? There's a difference between smiling through small talk and having an actual conversation. The party too was nice cause I met up with both my buddies, who were so enthusiastic and lovely- met ( Read more... )

OK. I officially cannot socialise. And because we're not doing any work per se just now, to show our stuff (no one even wants to, they all want to dance, which freaks the fuck out of me) I don't even have that to fall back on. People are nice, but as is always the way, they always seem to be nicer to other people. No one wants a best friend and I ( Read more... )