1 is the loneliest actor.

[eatmywords09]

OK. I officially cannot socialise. And because we're not doing any work per se just now, to show our stuff (no one even wants to, they all want to dance, which freaks the fuck out of me) I don't even have that to fall back on. People are nice, but as is always the way, they always seem to be nicer to other people. No one wants a best friend and I

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[darkbob]

I would love to meet you and know you in person! But I understand how you feel ... I, too, wished I had a best friend made in Syracuse (or at all...) and meet people to really form a group but mostly everyone has their own thing going and that's all they care about. It's tough but at least you have Alex to lean on. Meantime, go out and socialize the more you do it the more you might be comfortable with your peers!

Ahh, drama school. Something I'll never have a clue about! I can't believe you had to walk around in leotards and do "school work"!

[eatmywords09]

I never believed in the best friend thing but I do believe in connections (that sounds SO cheesy) with people. Everyone keeps telling me that everyone is trying to cover up their own nervousness but I'm dubious- I think more people than me are just genuinelly better at looking after themselves.
I do try, so hard! You know, asking questions and trying to be engaging and smiley but it might come off as manic frightened ape rictus grin. But yes, I do have Alex if it's all terrible. for 3 years. oh my God I hope not!
lol count yourself lucky you don't have to wear a leotard.

[angelic_brat]

Aww at the whole imagining him there telling you to listen to the teachers. Aww. Awwwww.

I find that after school, it's really hard to make best friends. I feel the same way everytime I'm put in a new situation, that I'm always this extra bit desperately hanging around people for some sort of human contact. Everyone else seems to make friends so much easier. Felt that way in A-Levels, felt that way in my first year. I mean, my classmates are all absolutely lovely but I didn't find that best friend, and I look at those who are best buds and feel like an incompetent human being.

I can't believe Alex is so good at what we girls actually want to hear when we have a problem.

I absolutely disagree that you are boring. I think things will get easier once you start having proper class stuff, and you'll have more to talk about. Just be yourself (there isn't any other option) and the right friends will gravitate towards you, or you to them. Don't give up trying and socializing.. You'll find a friend or two or more I'm sure!!

[eatmywords09]

lol at my Alex madness, it keeps me sane. and yeah, he really is so good at saying the right thing, he's such an awesome human being in general.
Alex said something quite similar- in that, with changing schools a lot, you get used to the first few days of awkward small talk and feeling left out- which is exactly what he did, going to so many different places. God, don't feel incompetent- socialising is a genuine skill. the fact you can do it at all is evidence of your talent.

[eatmywords09]

Yeah I know, I just kinda hoped the awesome would outweigh the hard from the start. I feel like such a wimp but honestly I'm much better at getting on with a job (well, acting at least) than all the nonsense of how to navigate a cocktail party.
please do call any night! I finish on average 6.30 so call me round then while I'm walking home (I would call you baby but Im on Pay as You Go, lol, I'm so behind the times)
lol it was a good party actually- so so packed cause all other students from all courses were there. no food, but one free drink from the bar. actors, we're all skint, remember so not quite the waiters and Shakespeare fantasy. but lol I now imagine you saying Joey-style, "Why would you ruin it for me, who was I hurting?"
love you and all xx