countless opportunities ( Read more... )

At this moment I am announcing to the world that I have close connections in a certain governmental agency of a certain imperial power.  This governmental agency is to be known in this journal posting as the Military Death Machine (MDM).

In case you are not familiar with MDM, here's a short description:

[MDM] is the central research and development ( Read more... )

For the past several days I’ve withdrawn into myself in ways that may or may not prove to be ultimately productive, but which in the immediacy of it all have been difficult.  I handed over 60+ pages of journal writing to my wise, old, therapist-shrink, Dr. Jung -- kind of the “best of” from the past four years of keeping a journal, and only a small ( Read more... )

All my good, strong, positive, lusty, wondrous, magical, and i-will-get-past-this-time feelings from the past week have vanished ( Read more... )

My Friday morning meeting was canceled at the last minute, which is okay by me except for the fact that I got my body to campus today for the sole purpose of attending the meeting.  Not that I don't have about a million other little things that need doing here, because I do and could do them if I had any ounce of work-related motivation on this ( Read more... )

Walking down the hall of my bland institution today, this hall to be exact, I was overcome by the sudden desire to do a downward facing dog.  I paused there, considered my options, and was on the verge of shifting into the Vinyasa flow sequence:  high to low pushup, up-dog to down-dog, and then just hanging out with my ass in the air for awhile.  ( Read more... )

"I remember the exact moment when my sense of wonder came back. I don't know where it went or when it left or if I ever really had a sense of wonder in the first place, but I know when it came back ( Read more... )

When I was in DC my mother agreed to pay for an additional session with Dr. Jung every week for the next several months.  That's two times a week I'll be going, which seems just over the top and beyond self-indulgent, especially for someone who until a few years ago was completely suspicious and distrustful of anything that smacked of therapy and ( Read more... )

I've been feeling my LiveJournal world shrinking, as I seem to desire to share my thoughts (or at least some of my thoughts) with fewer people these days.  If I seem sparse, that may be the case.  On the other hand, the writing is my way out of many things, so it must happen, and in so doing I also feel the need to open myself up more than close ( Read more... )

Today was all over the map, in so many ways.  There was an intense session with Dr. Jung, where we are perhaps finally getting to the level of talking about what needs to be talked about, but which I am very good at avoiding.  There was a two-hour staff meeting with some provoking and thoughtful conversation.  There was a trip out to 85th Ave, ( Read more... )