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alright, i've put on some wieght, i've been falling into this stupid state. . . . . i just need to pull myself out. I can do it. i know that if i lose some of this weight, i'll be happier, i know that's half my problem. Ok. here we go to the gym. I just wish i had some energy, i haven't been able to sleep. not because of my roommates, just haven't ( Read more... )

shit. i feel like i'm falling, sinking, into a terrible irrational state. help me. a feeling of wanting to run away, go home, go somewhere. but home? no, i am just as bad there, it doesn't help to go home. it doesn't help. i feel happier at the barn. but if i'm too upset, i might take out my emotinal turmoil on strauss. whyyy am i doing this? then ( Read more... )

I want to go home. I want to go home so bad. I don't mind driving 3 hours. I don't mind at all. But my mom said the weather is bad . . . . or something ( Read more... )

i just ate so much food

life would be better if i was skinny . . . . . and not a fucking pig . . . . . oh well. i know i'm being stupid.

I had my second hospitality exam today, i was really nervous for it, I think I got a B, which I would be happy with--although an A would be great. Tomorrow I have an exam in math. I really hate math. As soon as I feel like I'm "getting it", the rug is pulled out from underneath my feet and I'm back where I started. Math always leaves me feeling ( Read more... )

I'm almost too tired to write about this. But I want to write about my session this afternoon, before too much fades away from my memory. I almost don,'t want to write about it here, but Julianne is the only one who really has access to my journal, so its not too public ( Read more... )

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