Remember that time...

Dec 18, 2009 07:11

when you got completely fucked up, and were convinced your pulse was, like, dancing with the music? Then you went around telling everyone to feel your neck, but you had headphones on. No one had a clue what fucking music you were even talking about.

Naturally, I do not know in the slightest. I was gone. Point A and point B were obscure, so you can ( Read more... )

and i'm done

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ex_jvgh December 18 2009, 14:24:24 UTC
I have found myself in a similar enough situation. I'm not sure it's going to help anyone else, but it did help me whenever I wrote down what I was feeling, as jumbled and disjointed as it was. It was a chore and I didn't feel like doing it but now I'm really glad I forced myself to. I feel cleaner. I think.

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dizzyok December 18 2009, 22:00:54 UTC
That's actually a brilliant idea. My friends would just give me pitying/disappointed looks, which is why they can shove off tight now.

Didn't really feel like becoming a wino, so much appreciated. Thanks

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ex_jvgh December 18 2009, 22:33:22 UTC
you're welcome...

I used to write on a tiny tiny notebook I always had in my bag - my friends wouldn't even notice I was, well, vomiting stuff on the page. I actually found that notebook a few weeks ago when I was moving -- I read it all at once and it was... powerful stuff. it's probably just the time that's passed but I almost didn't recognize me? I don't know if that makes sense. I was also mildly to hugely ashamed, but that's just my upbringing rearing its ugly head, I guess.

btw I'm all for a little alcohol consumption. but it doesn't build anything apart from genius hangovers, now does it?

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dizzyok December 18 2009, 22:43:06 UTC
Is that an unsure you're welcome? If so, I seriously am appreciative. <3

Yeah, always throws me for a loop too when I read something written a while back. General confusion and 'I wrote this?' abound.

No doubt. That's why I don't drink unless I'm happy. Preventing patterns from occurring. :P

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