Voodoo has taken me and I'm now: mauribot ... Add me back if you want! I will write more. Just you wait and see. <3 Toodles.

Well, hi @ online world. I am alive. Doing wellswelldandywell. I'm not "depressed" anymore (although that's something I will probably struggle with the rest of my life). Going back to school this Fall (Nursing still). Not on any pills. Sleeping better. Not horribly broke. In love again. LOOK MA, I'M FIXED. :D I might seem crazy, but I am finally ( Read more... )

Normally I don't do this... but, Happy Birthday hormones! (Not to say other people's birthdays aren't important, of course)

I <3 you for sticking by me all these years. I will always be very grateful for talking to you in Social Studies in grade 11 and hitting it off. You no doubt made my high school years fun and I have so many good memories from that ( Read more... )

I phoned a crisis intervention line at midnight. I hadn't phoned that line since I was 15 or 16 and I think they called the police and I ended up being admitted? Talked to a nice guy. I'm not doing that well, honestly. It's hard for me to admit I am going to get help, but I'm at the point where I'm going to get back seeing a (or my old) therapist/ ( Read more... )

Been working at the new Starbucks since June. They're quite busy (the Safeway store & Starbucks). Most of my co-workers are nice. We sound like an all girls band: Lacey, Mariah, Maddie, Sarah, Sarah, Devynn, Amanda & Mauri! Females: Move out! I'm not getting quite as many hours as I'd like, but it's close more or less. Today my 8-12 girl called in ( Read more... )

Last night my dad offered to pay off my entire Visa card (and let him keep it after). Woo! I guess I should be glad they sold their house and he actually has money to give and help me with. I have never really been spoiled with money from him until now where I'm getting $200 each month for my rent until Sept. and now he's pretty much giving me $1, ( Read more... )

I'm pretty much so incredibly stupid. Talk about taking some steps in the wrong direction. God dammit. I am so fucking sick of this all. I wish I was someone else. Somewhere else. Anywhere. I want to be fine, just cut out my heart. I'm tired of people. Although I guess people will be reading this so maybe that's hypocritical. I seriously want to do ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if I pretend to be alright rather than actually be alright. I don't really have another option, however. I'd probably go insane if I thought about the sad reality of things. And I can't mope 24/7 effectively with obligations (nor do I want to). I know a lot of people pretend and it's probably for the best in my situation. ( Read more... )

Hoooookay. I totally went to bed after 5am 'cause I was talking to Ian for a few hours. Which went surprisingly well? First time we've talked as "friends" and we're all fine/dandy. Interesting! Silly life. I'm happy about it, though. I hate grudges and suck at them. Is it bizare that I now have 3 ex's that I potentially can be good friends and ( Read more... )

Went out with people todayyyy. ( Socializing. )