the new year is coming. no, not yours. the jewish one ( Read more... )

+the in-laws like me ( Read more... )

it's easy to pretend that i miss it
the copper bars glistening in a room lit solely by neon
the smell of sweating through too much moisturizer
and forced arousal
i stopped sleeping naked because i didn't feel clean enough
to slip between unprotected sheets
even after the shower
hoping to soak up enough water to ease the imprints of his groping
i'm still ( Read more... )

in the only picture i have left of you

you're flipping off the camera

i think it's pretty accurate

you always did say fuck you first

and introduce yourself second.

i keep it as a reminder of what not to turn into

see, i always knew you were broken

we shattered each other over whitewashed walls

and licked up the pieces when the nurses weren't ( Read more... )

-i have to go to work soon ( Read more... )

the first morning after a snowstorm ( Read more... )

i'm engaged.
that's right. she proposed and i said yes. i am officially off the market.
i couldn't have found a better match. she is everything i ever wanted, and then some.

expect to hear about this a lot in the next couple weeks.

that would be the pit of no internets. but now i have internets again, thanks to my amazing and talented girlfriend.

having said that, i have very little to post about. i'm making cinnamon rolls. i'm very excited to have an oven again. ela got a job at a super ritzy tennis club where apparently bill gates is a member. weird.

- i burned myself at work ( Read more... )

i dreamed you in the evenings
waking after a single hour of sleep
to her hands and face twisted
i dreamed you before i smoothed her back out
before tiptoe-ing to bathroom tile
the only part of the house that didn't echo
i dreamed your face next to mine in the mirror
how even through nightmare contortions and sleep sweat
you were so beautiful
i went back to ( Read more... )