this day is just like any other except that i am tired of having my journal empty so i had to write something, right now there is no assuring of anything and i have no direction in life so im just finding my way in this confusion or at least trying to. i care for to many and regardless of what i know or feel im not allowed to listen to my own heart ( Read more... )

I didnt even know i still had this thing...i came on the site reading one of my friends entries as i normally do first thing when i get up and found out my live journal is still active..i dont have much to post because this really is a living hell trust me im more lost then i could possibly ever be im having emotions for persons i shouldnt and i ( Read more... )

hm..boredom..nothing..black empty space...humans..vampires.. there is no co-existance one will triumph over the other...no one knows what the future holds those who believe in past "present" and future are flawed..there is a past and a future but since time is always moving forward there is no such thing as the "present" the present is the future ( Read more... )

i wonder how many ppl actually read this thing...i noticed out of all my posts i had 2 replies 1 from aurora and 1 from someone i dont know telling me i should be put on zoloft..know what..you humans are fucked..period ( Read more... )

ya know..i thought by blocking and deleting i would be through with a certain someone but apprently..not..so ive thought about unblocking and re-adding but i dont think i want to constantly fight with her..music is boring as of now..lifes sunny and bright and hot yet slightly depressing i started to write a song out of rage which is never a good ( Read more... )

aparently me blocking anna was some sort of "sin against god" cause now my computer is giving me "operating system not found" errors with all the errors on my comp im better off A: selling it or B: reformatting it because THIS is bullshit..and right now my net life isnt really worth having and i have to pay 30$ a month for a slow ass cable provider ( Read more... )

Rock Howard(shut up...hes a good character..dont bug me about it) says ( Read more... )

one day my true form will awaken from withing and on that day for once this world will be something peacefull something that isnt hell because then i will for once have control over my own life as i dont have so far i wait for that day..knowing it will come one day..all in due time..all in due time..everything will happen that is what i believe it ( Read more... )

this is from the song "roxanne" -roxanne you dont have to put on that red light walk the street for money you dont care its wrong or if its right roxanne you dont have to wear that dress tonight roxanne you dont have to sell your body to the night...his eyes upon you face his hand upon your skin his lips carress your skin ITS MORE THEN I CANT stand ( Read more... )

here i sit wondering..is love possible or is it really so unreachable that ill never be loved back by anyone i care for..right now i dont seem to make anyone happy and making ppl happy makes me happy so im never happy..and things just arnt getting any better..i hope in some way or another someone needs me around because i sure dont feel wanted.