another boring update.
i wonder how many ppl actually read this thing...i noticed out of all my posts i had 2 replies 1 from aurora and 1 from someone i dont know telling me i should be put on zoloft..know what..you humans are fucked..period.
1st of all..you believe in "love" 2nd you believe in "compassion" 3rd you believe in the possibility of happyness. Therefore you are all fucked..love is nothing but a blind emotion brought on by other emotions you wish you had..love is nothing but the "desire" or "want" for someone as well as emotional lonelyness if you are alone then you search for love yet if you are not alone you still search for it...love is something that is merely just a spurr of another emotion that for some reason never dies..and yet..it does.
love..is something i will never feel..i have to many scars now to much hurt and to much damage has been done to me..i will never love anyone as of this moment there are only 4 ppl left in this world that i feel are worth saving or worth being with
1:aki
2:aurora
3:maggie(who is having health problems and im worried about)
4:...forget number 4 she she abandoned me long ago i care not to live in the past living in dreams doesnt count either.
love only exists in a persons dreams reality is much much different and much less appealing there is no singing birds or happy sunshine or waking up next to someone you love making you breakfast or tucking your kids into bed..no there is no loving someone and holding them close to you no kissing them on cold rainy days no healing them when hurt no helping them nothing...love..is empty it is nothing..that is all lies of a world that never exists. whoever reads this can comment as they feel they should im hoping somebody does comment and if no one does ill think about deleting my livejournal account because as i see it this is waste.
1st of all..you believe in "love" 2nd you believe in "compassion" 3rd you believe in the possibility of happyness. Therefore you are all fucked..love is nothing but a blind emotion brought on by other emotions you wish you had..love is nothing but the "desire" or "want" for someone as well as emotional lonelyness if you are alone then you search for love yet if you are not alone you still search for it...love is something that is merely just a spurr of another emotion that for some reason never dies..and yet..it does.
love..is something i will never feel..i have to many scars now to much hurt and to much damage has been done to me..i will never love anyone as of this moment there are only 4 ppl left in this world that i feel are worth saving or worth being with
1:aki
2:aurora
3:maggie(who is having health problems and im worried about)
4:...forget number 4 she she abandoned me long ago i care not to live in the past living in dreams doesnt count either.
love only exists in a persons dreams reality is much much different and much less appealing there is no singing birds or happy sunshine or waking up next to someone you love making you breakfast or tucking your kids into bed..no there is no loving someone and holding them close to you no kissing them on cold rainy days no healing them when hurt no helping them nothing...love..is empty it is nothing..that is all lies of a world that never exists. whoever reads this can comment as they feel they should im hoping somebody does comment and if no one does ill think about deleting my livejournal account because as i see it this is waste.