I think God's way of punishing me for being so bad when I was a teen is forcing me to never find love. Cause I mean he knows what kind of love I want, and he knows that I've never found anything like it, so leading me to believe it doesn't exist. Totally not fair. I'm beginging to think I think too much.

I've got big plans. Not just for this week, but for this year. Which, initially is a good, and huge deal. Normally I lack ambition, but I have a drive this time. I'm excited, and new. Only I really know the meaning of that, so let me elaborate. I really found my true self here in the past 6 months. I know what I want in life now, and I know that I' ( Read more... )

I don't really have any thoughts to put here today. I really, for the first time, don't particullarly care. I'm a mess of things. A little bit of the past, a little bit of now, and a little bit of tomorrow. Somehow, when it all comes together, it doesn't feel good. I don't like it. I've had my questions answered, or at least to the best they could ( Read more... )

Ok, so we are def. leaving today. In an hour to be exact.

Sometimes I get so overwhelmed I run my mouth. I never wanted to tell anyone I was coming back, because I wanted to give Terez a heart attack :) haha she'd have died seeing me, and not knowing. But, Chelsey can't ever contain her joy. But, I can keep secrets for other people. That never ( Read more... )

I'm very hot, the weather is retarded ( Read more... )

So, I'm sitting in Florida, and this is what my sister is doing. It really bothers me that people can be so selfish, and not think about anyone but their selves. If you were me, would you have done the same thing? Do you think I was in the wrong?

UrGir1FriendsHot: What are you doing?
BudL1ghtGurl20: nothing vhillen whatchu doin
UrGir1FriendsHot: ( Read more... )

Tonight has been an illuminating night. Lately, as you all know, I have been battling my faith in god. Well, struggling with it, would be a more useful phrase. But, I had a 3 hour conversation with one of my 2 best guy friends tonight, and it wasn't just about God, and faith, it was about a great deal of things, but he really gave me . . . I don't ( Read more... )

I've decided that all of my previous entries are worthless, and they do not make me look smart . . . at all . . . so I'm going to attempt to redeem myself for my own self happiness, by this entry. It's merely for my own self, than anyone else. These are things I have to remember, and people should take into consideration with me.

Avoid taking ( Read more... )

has like no "maitnance" and "unexpected errors" . . . I would probably cry. Myspace has been a complete mess for like the past 2 weeks. There has been nothing but issues with it, and it's getting worse everday. Sometimes I think about actually deleting my account, but I can't find it in me to actually do it. I'm so weak. I know this is irrational, ( Read more... )

Today was not a great day, not in the least. I think I'm coming down with a sinus infection, and it's making me pissed off. I have no energy whatsoever, and I am so fucking tired, and my head feels like a painful balloon, I want to rip my stupid eyes out, and just sleep. This is terrible, I never get sick, what the fuck. Echanasea actually did make ( Read more... )