I'm thankful that LJ
has like no "maitnance" and "unexpected errors" . . . I would probably cry. Myspace has been a complete mess for like the past 2 weeks. There has been nothing but issues with it, and it's getting worse everday. Sometimes I think about actually deleting my account, but I can't find it in me to actually do it. I'm so weak. I know this is irrational, but ever since Pat did his 'strike' on myspace, myspace has become a nuisance. It makes sense in my mind, so whatever. It's really gloomy here, and it's rainy, and thundery . . . just the way I love it. And I was thinkging today, I miss them days when I was in like 8th grade, and my boyfriend actually held my hand, no one has held my hand in years, besides Don, but that was for like 5 minutes and it meant nothing really. I'm looking out my window right now, and the weather is getting worse, it's getting darker, and so much windier, I hope we get a hurricane. I've gotten over my fear of storms since I moved to Florida. I love them. I want to see a hurricane, minus all the death and destruction. I wish I was a sailor. I wrote a new song, and I want to make it perfect, I don't know whether or not to post it for critism. But I think I need some. I watched my normal soap operas today, and I got totally bummed out. Reva is my favorite and she is battling breast cancer, and she hasnt told anyone, mainly because her husband josh is undergoing this new project and he's stoked about it, and she doesnt want to burden him. So she goes off to get treated, and the rat of a husband he is, tells her he loves her so much, then he fucks her sister, and her sister is like passionately in love with him. Dude hi, your wife, and your sister are dying and all you can think about is your animal hormones? I want to rip their dumb heads off, that is soooo wrong. I cried. <3 I'm really exhausted, I actually went to bed at like 2am and woke up at 9am. But I think I am going to go watch movies and sleep. I'm sad. I don't know why I'm sad though. I'm excited too, school starts soon.