Holy life is definately different. I have grown so much throughout the last couple of years, and I have had a lot of things taken from me as well, and I have also lost a big part of who I am as a person as well... but through the struggles I have also found a peace, a wrinkle in time if you may... I found what, to me, seems like my fate, my destiny ( Read more... )

wow it's been awhile. man I always keep forgetting I have this thing. Life has definately been different. Just broke up with my girlfriend of 2 years, learning how to deal with that. I'm now a manager at my job, it's a bittersweet kind of thing. I have 13 tattoos, and really short hair. My best friend is pregnant, and moved to texas to marry a boy ( Read more... )

So life has been a weird dream lately. One I wish I wasn't having. I suppose I'm not completely happy with how things have turned out for me, but I bet it's for the best in some way. Some how. I miss the old me. The vibrant me. The me that was ruthless, fun, and never frowned. It's like I never smile anymore, I fake laughing so I don't look like a ( Read more... )

And yet, another year later ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I updated. I still don't know why I even use this thing. Sometimes I just remember it and decide to log in, today I thought maybe I'd find some of my old poetry here, but I didn't. I had it on a site, all of my writing actually in hopes to eventually publish it in a book, somehow it managed to be deleted . . . all of it. I ( Read more... )

So, yesterday I lost a very close friend. I've never met anyone in my life who was so giving, and loving. Who could hate the world, but love it just as much if not more. Someone who loved meeting new people, and doing all types of things . . . never judged anyone in his life! He taught me so many things, things I'm going to hold in my heart forever ( Read more... )

I'm awfully depressed today. It's so hard to fight the urge to pick up the phone and call him and completely spill my feelings, but I know I can't. It would show how weak I am, and I am supposed to have all the control here. I feel like all my walls are crumbling, and I just want to cry. I don't feel beautiful anymore, and my self esteem has ( Read more... )

It's October . . . and as always my life has fallen apart. Just when everything seems so fucking great, and like nothing can go wrong . . . I jinx my fucking self. I met a man. I gave him my heart, he made me happy, blinded by all his lies . . . I quit drugs, drinking, even smoking. Then our fucking house had to go and burn the fuck down. We went ( Read more... )

It's been awhile since I've written in here ( Read more... )

So it's literally been ages since I have updated. Well let's see here. Long story short. I had a job at Ponderosa, had a lot of fun. Got fired. Started seeing this great guy named Dane, and he turned into a dink. So that ended abruptly. ((my love life stinks)). So once again, I give up on dating all together. I quit smoking cigartettes. Thank god ( Read more... )