i'm completely two different people sometimes. or...most of the time i think. example: i want to be carefree, easy going and not give a fuck about anything. on the other hand, i want to have discipline in my life and work for things i need and want. i want to have amazing jobs that i would have to work hard for...but i also feel like i want things ( Read more... )

this is from an entry on my old myspace blog that was about a weekend that was awesome. ending up having mixed and eventually stupid feels for someone that weekend, but it was an awesome weekend. heres a favorite clip of the post ( Read more... )

check out the entry on december 15, 2006.

last night, for the first time in almost a year, i dreamt about adam again.

in my dream, i was still in love with him as much as i ever was.

i wish i wish i knew what this meant.

the deep breath before the next chapter of my life.

guess where i went this time.

http://roadtrip101.livejournal.com/

i am so scared. i want to cry all night long.

i don't like it when my heart hurts.

"i've been looking for something. i've been looking for God. and i'm starting to think that maybe what i'm looking for isn't in the box i'm looking at. what if the relationship i'm looking for is something outside of the norm....if i need something else...i don't know, and i'm not sure, but some how it already feels comfortable ( Read more... )

you should know this ( Read more... )

SANTA IS DEPRESSED FOR GOOD REASONS