Being heavy most of my life I have this trouble with feeling like things will hold me, that I will be safe in certain situations, that things won't break under my weight and plunge me to my death, or simply embarass me.  I was at Magic Mountain, an amusement park with roller coasters, and there is a coaster called Tatsu.  The coaster starts with ( Read more... )

I am freaking out, and I was up all night freaking out so now I am freaking out with lack of sleep, so my thoughts are really running wild, along with a headache and slight nausea.

Some of you have heard me complain about my job, nd I have had reason to, but I tend to shoot myself in the foot once I am unhappy with aspects of my job, and I think I ( Read more... )

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 I found yet another way to exercise, and this one has a bonus, I am walking to end homelessness in Los Angeles.  A 5k at 7am tomorrow morning, and being the procrastinator I am, I haven't raised a dime...if you would like, please help...

https://www.kintera.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=236825&lis=1&kntae26825= ( Read more... )

 Stolen from buffyfan30

Quiz

- go to google images
- search up your answer
- pick one image from the first page
- and post



1. The age you will be on your next birthday.

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Vincent and I woke up at the crack of dawn this morning and drove for an hour to Long Beach, where we met up with this internet group of people to go kayaking.  Why did we meet up with them?  I have two words....group rate.  The normal rate to rent a kayak is $15 an hour and we got the kayak for $20 for 2 hours.

We noticed that the water was fairly ( Read more... )

Yes, I have kidney stones.  Yes they hurt like hell.  No, I don't know what caused them (there are like 5 different kinds, each with their own unique cause) but everyone has their theories.  They also all seem to have a "friend" who has had kidney stones and they all seem to tell me that the person passed out from the immense pain or grown men weep ( Read more... )

I began dancing again.  Country Line Dancing.  I have no imagination as far as what to do on a dance floor when the music is throbbing and people are moving.  I like being told what move to make and when, and country line dancing not only gives you a feeling of community because you are dancing with others on the floor, but also a feeling of ( Read more... )

Tomorrow I begin.  Tommorow school starts and I meet my new classes.  I always feel a bit like the students are going to see through me, like they have these goggles and can see all of my insecurity that I try to hide way deep inside.

When I begin at a new job, the same as when I am in an unfamiliar situation, I desire to sit back and feel out how ( Read more... )

My friend Mariano decided to go to Atlanta for his 29th birthday celebration but neglected to secure transportation to and from the airport for his trip, so he asked me at the last minute, about midnight the night before he was leaving, that he had to be at the airport by 6am the next morning. I finally agreed to take him (meaning I had to get up ( Read more... )