this journal is now officially dead. i won't be deleting/ moving any of my old entries. everything stays as it is. this is me.. or was. changing journal names doesn't necessarily mean that i've changed. i don't think i have, but i needed something different. my new journal is what i'm going to stick with for probably the rest of my online journal ( Read more... )

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i'm so tired of people taking surveys and posting them ( Read more... )

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dear love,

find me now please.

( <3 )

why couldn't i have been named sebastian or even jet
i'm seriously thinking about making the necessary steps needed to permenantly change my name
just to get this out of my system, a few more names :

. joey
. neeta
. lee
. nova
. elle

and if your name is lonte, it means hoe in indonesia. i'm sorry.

racquel

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i wish things didn't bore me so easily.

i want to go out.
but i won't.

i feel so desolate.

i have so many supressed feelings and thoughts..
my dreams scare me.
i'm trying not to think about things too much but when i sleep i have no control.
i think about everything possible ( Read more... )