I have been very social as of late. It is very strange for. More in the sense that I never seem pleased with whatever is going on. If I am at home alone, I want company. If I have a shitton to do, I tend to want to do nothing. I always want the opposite of whats going on ( Read more... )

it sucks to give a lot to something and have no idea where you stand. i spend a lot of my days making other people smile. its what i am good at. whether its people at work. or someone that needs help on the side of the road. i try my hardest to usually make them smile and make their day better. but at what expense to myself? i constantly go out of ( Read more... )

it can be assumed that i am having a shitty night. tomorrow is matt's little bonfire thing. i've asked at least ten people to go with me and all have said no. am i really that horrible to be around? im going to ride my bike for a good long time. ill be back after midnight.

ive made a few new friends this week. they are pretty awesome. one in particular. she seems pretty sweet ( Read more... )

This month has pushed me emotionally and physically than any month I can remember. As one thing went wrong, I couldn't help but wonder.. what is next? I never really had a chance to let one thing bother me because something else was already on the way ( Read more... )

i dont enjoy feeling like i am pushing someone to hang out with me.

part of me wants to just give up until something fixes itself. me pushing is only hurting both parties.

at the same time if i stop trying so hard. will it faid away?

This past month has been very interesting. I have been hanging out with a new girl. If you were to take me and make me an amazing girl... thats what you would get ( Read more... )

For some reason i felt the urge to make a post about my ex girlfriends. what they were, what i got out of this moment in time ( Read more... )

i hurt a lot.

everything i have worked for this year is gone.

life fucking blows.

i havent slept in three days.

and i have ate only two pieces of pizza in those days.

this is not an attempt to get any attention.

this is me being pissed off.

ten months to go.

i dont think my heart can take that.

interesting night.