low on time, low on esteam...
This past month has been very interesting. I have been hanging out with a new girl. If you were to take me and make me an amazing girl... thats what you would get.
I have really fallen for her. And most of my days are spent thinking of ways to make her smile. I would give anything to just be with her. Unfortunatly things are not that simple...
as things seem to work for me lately... she has a boyfriend. and per usual, i try my hardest to make her realize he isnt good enough for her. and that i am the right boy for her. I can only do so much though. i can only show her how good life could be. i cant make it. only offer. and how long can one offer his whole self, before he loses it? how long can i wear my heart on my sleve? eventually youll bleed to death, from trying.
my last intention would be to make her feel bad for not making a decision. and by all means she has a right to do anything she wishes. i mean, they have been together for a long time. first loves... in all honesty... i dont stand a chance. i knew that from the start. but i wont feel right, if i didnt give it my all.
this girl has given me hope. given me reason to smile. wake up. breathe... but she is not mine. i can not hold her. tell her how much i adore her. wake up next to her. she is simply an image in my mind.
we have shared moments. and they have been amazing. how she knows everything about me. and how i can talk nonstop to her is amazing. that she loves video games, has a smile that could melt the artic. i would die to have her.
yet at the same time. who's to say something wont happen. maybe not now. but five months from now. a year from now. who knows. i try to stay optimistic towards life. and with her i give it my best. i want to believe that something will happen someday. but i live my life day by day. and when today is rough. its hard to think about tomorrow. or next week. i focus souly in the moment in time, and the pain that runs through my veins.
even after saying all of this. i still know that tomorrow i will wake up and think of nothing but her. and that just goes to show how special she is...
"... proceed with caution from here on in..."
I have really fallen for her. And most of my days are spent thinking of ways to make her smile. I would give anything to just be with her. Unfortunatly things are not that simple...
as things seem to work for me lately... she has a boyfriend. and per usual, i try my hardest to make her realize he isnt good enough for her. and that i am the right boy for her. I can only do so much though. i can only show her how good life could be. i cant make it. only offer. and how long can one offer his whole self, before he loses it? how long can i wear my heart on my sleve? eventually youll bleed to death, from trying.
my last intention would be to make her feel bad for not making a decision. and by all means she has a right to do anything she wishes. i mean, they have been together for a long time. first loves... in all honesty... i dont stand a chance. i knew that from the start. but i wont feel right, if i didnt give it my all.
this girl has given me hope. given me reason to smile. wake up. breathe... but she is not mine. i can not hold her. tell her how much i adore her. wake up next to her. she is simply an image in my mind.
we have shared moments. and they have been amazing. how she knows everything about me. and how i can talk nonstop to her is amazing. that she loves video games, has a smile that could melt the artic. i would die to have her.
yet at the same time. who's to say something wont happen. maybe not now. but five months from now. a year from now. who knows. i try to stay optimistic towards life. and with her i give it my best. i want to believe that something will happen someday. but i live my life day by day. and when today is rough. its hard to think about tomorrow. or next week. i focus souly in the moment in time, and the pain that runs through my veins.
even after saying all of this. i still know that tomorrow i will wake up and think of nothing but her. and that just goes to show how special she is...
"... proceed with caution from here on in..."