prayer ( Read more... )

chain reaction

sometimes just getting started is the hardest part
everything snowballs into place from there
trying to collect my thoughts
organize -- synchronize
racing - to the beat of your heart
rhythm of your breath
a simple
-placement-
of your hand *~d*r*a*w*s~* me inon my heart on my neck ( Read more... )

i drove all the way to phoenix by myself. just me & a gun, & a dog in the back...um...no, it wasnt a creepy stella & louise drive [did anyone get that? i'm not as clever as i feel am i?] but i'm SO SUPER PROUD OF MYSELF!!!!!!!! i mean seriously, any man ive dated knows how horrible my sense of direction is, how i can get lost going home on a ( Read more... )

i miss marcus

just for you marcus...

/(.)(.)\

do you know what that is? yea ya do

...make me proud & say it [cuz i'll be pissed if you dont read this]

happy bday to ELI

and

happy bday to Nikki

and

happy bday to Ghabe

and

!!HALLY HAPPOWEEN!!

...that is all

things i like about myself ( Read more... )

i finally worked out the car thing. picked me up a nice sexy red 92 honda prelude in pretty darn excellent condition for a 16yo car. & 16 she is!


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nobody complained bout christian bale becoming lettuce leaf thin in the machinist. he made for an awesome performance but he had to lose all that weight for the character in his movie. actors often have to lose or gain weight for movies. thats how i'm thinking of it--i'm just trying on a new role for awhile. maybe i'll get a hot body out of it & ( Read more... )

my life is so utterly ridiculous right now. i dont even know up from down. work home everything is so far out of my control. its all so bizarre to me. i dont know how it got this way but i long for the days when everything was stable & mellow & i liked myself

yea...i used to like myself

go crazy >> cut hair >> feel better >> get man >> stabilize >> grow hair >> feel worse >> get crazy >> lose man >> cut hair >> feel better...lather, rinse repeat ( Read more... )