At no fault of her own, shes killing me... The way she looks at me and I see a familiar glow... The way her eyes shimmer in the light just as I feel her glance overcome every ounce of who I am... Her happiness is my envy... Her joy is my grief... A smile that Im not responsible for now sits on her face instead of the frown Ive put there so many ( Read more... )

I cant stand this anymore... Day after day..... Week after week... Another disappointment and another let down... I knew it was all false... Ive known for a while... I could tell in her voice... See the lies in her smile... See the false images hidden behind her brown eyes... I let the good times weaken me and then I was caught off guard...AGAIN ( Read more... )

Well I havent been to work in like a week or so... Have to go back tomorrow... Dont want to but I have to make money... Looks like Cleveland isnt going to happen... Oh well... Was kinda doubting it would to begin with... My fathers already bought tickets though so I dont know whats going on now.... Thats life.... Sorry to anyone whos talked to me ( Read more... )

Today I found out that my life is pretty much over... Everything I do now is limited and everything I have done has some bad effect on those around me... I give up on life because as far as I can tell life has given up on me... Hooray for you Garry... You suck....

I came unto an unforseen amount of knowledge... A knowledge that now I wish I would have never obtained... A knowledge that I am grateful for yet in the same moment I wish I could forget... Everything that I thought was right is wrong... Everything I thought I understood left me more in mystery than ever before... I hate knowing this... This itself ( Read more... )

Todays my 19th birthday... Sucks... Doesnt really feel any different from any of the last couple of years... The last two years have been pretty much one big blur.... Memories of things I want to forget and things I wish I could change and re-do but theres no poing in hoping when hope is the one thing that has always let me down... Fuck hope... ( Read more... )

Fuckers ( Read more... )

Its been a year... How was I suppose to know that she felt this way? I thought she was over me... Over the idea... Over the feelings, emotions... Over the pain... Now Im the addiction... The source of the agony instead of the one in agony... Shes the one crying now and Im the one confused... I look in the mirror now and see nothing but the ( Read more... )

Wow... I think I have found my calling... Car Salesman... Too bad I dont have a "professional look"... I wonder if I can call MTV and be *MADE* into a "Car Salesman"... Hmmm... Certainly more interesting than another social fuck tard wanting to be made into Mr. Popularity or some plastic Barbie whore wanting to be a quote un-quote hardcore skate ( Read more... )

Well lets see... Works going okay I suppose... Who am I kidding?... I need a new job... 6.40 an hour just isnt cutting it... It never will... Next week I have to buy a new battery, parts for my exhaust, new brake pads, tires and soon Im pretty sure Ill need to buy a new altenator, new sensors, new rotors, brake calilpers... Plus I want to buy ( Read more... )